Hallucinations of the Flyfreak

Say Hello to Goodbye

2011-07-04T21:59:00.001+08:00

After much consideration and deliberation,i have decided that this will be my last post.It's been a joyful 4 years of writing and sharing experiences.But we all knew it all along that one day it has got to end.Well,today is the day.No i am not sad,frustrated or depressed. I just thought that it's time for me to move on to something else.
I have developed so many beautiful friendship through blogging.In a way that you could never imagine. Not to mention ended a few as well. But that's life. If one thing that i have learn t in this short period of my life, that is nothing will stay the same forever. We act, we think,we feel whatever that is happening at the moment. We can never be sure of what the future holds for us. So I've learn not to put my expectations too high for if you fall, you will fall hard and might not be able to stand up. If you want something to happen,you got to work on your own.I always put that in my head.

I am so blessed with the people that I've met here,who eventually became like a family, you know who you are. God willing we will forever be one. So thank you really everyone for your supports, comments and most importantly your time in reading my rantings. I've grown so much for the past 4 years and you guys are part of my journey. It's time for me to start a new chapter of my life.Feel free to drop me a mail if you feel like writing.Who knew it will be a start of a new friendship.Till then, stay safe and remember life is short, we need to make the most of it.What doesn't kill you will make you stronger.Flyfreak signing off :)

Insecurity

2011-06-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

I lost the bloody key for my locker at the gym just now.I felt so stupid. Damn it i keep losing things over there,first my phone then this one. What's next? my pants? LOL. They had to use the big cutter to break the lock.Apparently it happened a lot at the gym so i don't feel that bad :p But i did look stupid searching and tracing back to one machine after another searching for my key.

The other day i was driving to work in the morning and i saw an accident on the highway with the lifeless body laying at the side of the road. Of course the ambulance and police was there. I would be more freak out if i'm the first one to witness it. I'm a chicken when it comes to all this. Ironically The Band Perry 'If i die young' was playing on the radio. Haih life is so short you'll never know when you'll reach the dead end. But while we're still alive,better make the most of it so that when we die,we won't have any regrets.Not that it matters anymore cause obviously when you're dead,you can't think Ok i'm talking crap and being so morbid.That's about it. Gotta to watch my series. Oh no it's about to end soon.One season left and that's it. I think i'm gonna cry watching the last episode. Hahahah Sharman we so need to get a life. We need Em in our life!

Just a lil bit longer

2011-06-12T21:19:00.001+08:00

So i found this really good place to buy books in Amcorp Mall after two attempts! Lol I went there the first time on my own only to actually bought quite a handful of books from a second hand bookstore. I thought that was the one that my friend described but i was wrong,there's actually another one on the same level. I felt so stupid because seriously the bookstore that she mentioned is smack in front of the one that i went in at first. Anyway i think i had a book orgasm when i went inside. They're so ridiculously cheap and new! I really was a happy man that day. Now the problem is i don't have enough space to put em' all not to mention when i'll be able to finish em'!

I flew to Macau again few days ago. It was my sector and yeah Rwy 16 in used. Again i was a happy man. I'm sorry but i really feel like an accomplishment when i managed to do the approach. Some pilots might think it's really nothing. Oh well whatever.

I also flew with this really pretty leading whom i've flown with few times. She's just really nice and i can really talk to her about relationship life etc although it was for a mere few minutes cause obviously she can't be staying in the cockpit for too long. She was telling me her experience in Monaco representing our company for some event, cause she's one of the 'flower pot', the term we use for stewardesses cum model. She was saying how perfect the life is there,how they were treated like princess and how people would do anything just to get under someone elses pants. Cause money really talks and there's no such thing as one can have too much money. They're that rich. So i was teasing her ' did you get any old balding CEO with 3 yatch and 20 lamborghini asking you to marry him and live happily ever after?' she goes 'darling, there's no such thing as happily ever after. All they care about is whether they can get their hands on me and i'm so much better than that.' For the record she is single and she's been saying how independant she is that she change her own bulbs and do stuff on her own. She also said that she is not ready to have a relationship. I used to think like her that i wasn't ready. But the truth is we are ready. It's just that we haven't met the right one. We're always ready. And no matter how much i think that karma will bite me back one day for rejecting people, i think i ought to stay truthful to my ownself first if not to other people. In the end i gotta to make decision on what is best for me.

It sure does get a lil bit tiring sometimes but hey i know i am not alone.The ridiculous thing that people would do when they fall in love or at least that's what they thought at first. I myself did pull up a few crazy stunts but at least i tried. And i certainly knows my limit. Even though they came in your life for a while,but that was short happy moments you look forward to.Sometimes this small thing worth remembering.When there's a voice telling you 'this is pathetic' then you know you should stop. Who knew the next one will stay a lil bit longer?

Right now there's just so many things i want to accomplish. Sometimes it drives me crazy because i want to do it all at once! I really gotta learn to be patience and not over analyze things. I guess that's a Virgos traits. We're tend to think too much and the least optimistic bunch of people.

Anyway was talking with bunch of FA's the other day, believe me you can lock me up in a room full of them but not with pilots. Boooooringgggg. One of them told me this story that i find really sad with the level of stupidity but it did cracked me up so hard. So they did this flight which i'm not gonna mention what route but there's this dude came out from the lavatory and went to this steward and told him 'your toilet seat is too high' and walk off. So the steward couldn't get what he actually meant so he brushed it off. Next thing you know there's a small scream coming from the next pax who went in after the dude. Yup you guess it right, he shit inside the sink! instead of the toilet bowl. Yes the bloody sink! I laughed so hard when he told me that.It still got me thinking how the hell he can shit while literally standing up cause obviously the sink is quite high. I pity them who had to clean it up but that was really funny. Hahahahaha.

My mum cooked nasi dagang today and again i'm a happy man. What i would do without my parents. Sometimes i wish that i will die before them so that i won't have to go home knowing that they won't be there.God forbid.

So how you all doing really? It'll be great if i could get to hear something from you guys. This song really sums up how i'm feeling at the moment and made me smile. Just remember things will work out after all. We just gotta be strong.

Don’t look fate can only find you
You can’t choose for something to surprise you
Set sail without a destination
Just see where the wind will take you
You never know when you're gonna fall
But I'm not worried
No I'm not worried

And I’m doing just fine
I’m always landing on my feet
In the nic of time
And by the skin of my teeth
I ain’t gonna stress
Cause the worst ain’t happened yet
Somethings watching over me
Like Sweet Serendipity

With every heartbeat

2011-05-31T02:10:00.001+08:00

The thing about aviation industry is that it is very small. Everybody basically knows everybody. We are all somewhat connected. People will talk about you even if they don't know you. People who doesn't even work in the same company as you will get news faster than you do. As much as i think that i am anti-social :p,i am actually a friendly lad (lol). But it has come to my senses that there's a limit on how friendly someone should be. Sometimes it is better that people do not know your name. That's all i can say.

Forgive me for not writing as much as i used to. I don't really think there's any readers left anyway. It's like do people still chat on yahoo messenger or msn? That's how lame blogging is nowadays. But i gotta to admit even tho i don't post anything,i still do come here almost everyday and i have no idea what i'm looking for. I guess it makes me happy to see that there's still one or two people who's willing to google me and waste their precious times hogging my blog.

I went out of town for the weekend. My last trip was to Cambodia and that was like a month ago. So i guess it's about time. I really need to go somewhere at least once a month just to,you know get all my senses back, not thinking about work or whatever that bothers me. Sorry there's no pictures to share since i don't feel like snapping and carrying my camera around.

I've been watching a lot of series lately. Trust me that's the only thing that makes me happy nowadays. Yeah i am that sad. Lol. I also managed to finish two books. It's been a while that i get to sit and read. I did most of the reading while flying. Right now my definition of a good flight is when the Captain is less chatty and when he sleep most of the times. That's when i can do my own stuff and read cause lately i don't feel like talking.

It's already 2am and i still can't sleep.

You can't touch me now there's no feeling left
What you did to me, i can't forget
If you think i'm coming back don't hold your breath

Yeah I Do

2011-05-22T22:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was just a beautiful day.Surrounded with lovely people to commemorate the union of two people that is close to our hearts.Simple and exquisite.That's how i always imagined a perfect wedding should be. To Kakak and Abang S, make beautiful babies soon hahahaha.

We almost had it all

2011-04-22T23:35:00.001+08:00

Hey! How you guys doing? There's nothing much happening in my part of the world except work and work.Ok that's not true,i don't work everyday but i do realize that days off is getting shorter and gone in no time.I guess i am just busy running around doing stuff.I got this two project (sounds a bit fancy) that i need to work on.It was given to me a month a go but since the dateline is in a month time,i procrastinate it.And i just realize that today is already 22nd! Holy shit. I need to get it done by today if not i won't be able to finish it.It doesn't help when i'm currently watching a really interesting series and downloaded few movies.As well as reading a really good book that i can't hardly put down.So yeah,the world is helping me dillydally-ing my job! Ain't my fault.

So yesterday was the Biebs concert ey? How did it go guys? Anyboy got killed? LOL.ok that's not funny. I am not a fan at all.I do find some of his songs good to listen to but i wouldn't call myself a fan.I am so in love with Adele each day tho.See,i told you guys since the beginning that she is bloody fantastic.Not to mention GORGEOUS.I am not exaggerating.She is!

I flew to Macau few days ago.It's been a while since i last went there.I always like Macau.I think it is less hectic than Hong Kong,the airport is nice and unique and it is one of the most challenging airport.They only have one runway (RWY34/16) which was built in the middle of the sea (how cool is that) thus the wind can be a little bit unkind and scary.And if you're 'LUCKY',one of the days they will use the other runway (RWY16) which was by far the weirdest approach i've ever seen. And guess what,i've been 'LUCKY' enough to experienced both. So obviously i took the first sector.First event,i flew with this really experienced Captain,a very very cool guy who likes to call me 'Young boy!' and call him self 'I am a stupid Captain!'. He's just really funny.Anyway,all the time flying en-route i keep praying 'Please let it be RWY 34,RWY 34,RWY 34'.Because i don't think i am confident enough to do the approach on RWY16.Guess what,as we approaching there,Hong Kong radar informed us RWY 16 in used.I was like GREAT!

My Captain look at me and said 'Don't worry young boy! I am here!'. I actually laughed when he said that.I wasn't that nervous or anything,it's just that i am confused with the approach! Thank God weather was really good we could see the whole island and it's just so beautiful.To cut the story short,i made it! I was really excited when we landed cause boy was that challenging! That day i felt so proud of myself.No kidding.That was a year ago.

Last few days i went there again but RWY 34 is in use this time.I was relieved for a while but then as we came in closer and descending i notice the crosswind.Damn it.That is one strong crosswind. I'm not gonna say how many knots but when your aircraft is facing to the right but you're going straight you know it's a strong one.In my head ' Why me? Why today?'. To tell you the truth i kinda panicked a little while once the autopilot is off but yeay i managed to land the aircraft! Ok i know it's not a big deal for some people but it is for me at least.

I thought i want to share this with you guys.

Anyway,the month of May will be a joyful month for us since something big gonna happen! Not gonna spill the beans yet.Tho my roster for May sucks bad! I got two flights to Kochi and Bangalore.God i hate ETOPS sector.Lucky got something to look forward to at the end of the month.

One of my favorite song from her album.Brilliant.

Sharman,this is the one i told you about when she did Cheryl's Promise This.

Next time I'll be braver,
I'll be my own savior,
Standing on my own two feet,

I won't let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me,
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me,
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables.

Hiding my heart

2011-04-11T18:48:00.003+08:00

I don't know whether i am in a state full of anger,frustration or maybe i am just relieved? I know that i have been bitching about everything here and made me sound like a sad person.To tell you the truth i am a happy person.It's just that i don't write when i am happy.I savored the moments in memory.Everyone need a way to channel their negative emotions and thoughts,some prefer to eat,some prefer to cry,some may want to take a long drive and some people like me like to express in this composition.As much as i prefer that my thoughts are sacred within me rather than lashing it out in public like this,it's kinda soothing and comforting to know that one or maybe two people out there are willing to read and probably think 'Hey,i felt that way too'.

In every single phases of our life,we need to make decision.We make decisions every single minute of our life.Whether it's good or bad that depends.There are times when we need other people to make decisions.Oh well technically they don't 100 percent.We might need other people's opinions in certain things but in the end,WE ourselves make our own decision. I don't think that i have any regrets about decisions that i have made.Or maybe i am just to egoistic to admit it? There are couple of times that i asked myself,'What was i thinking?', ' I think that was a really bad decision'. But then come to think of it,if i put myself back in the same situation,at that exact moment,that particular events,i wouldn't change anything. Cause there's a reason why we made that choice in the beginning.But being a normal human being ,we have that certain incertitude every now and then.

For this past two years,i think i have grown a lot.I believe that i have come to term with my own self.Meeting different people,different attitude,different places has taught me wonders.One thing for sure that i learnt is that nothing will stay the same.Not a single thing.If things were meant to be yours,it will be even after you lost it a few times.My friend lost his car once and found it back only to get stolen for the second time again in few months time.Same goes as people.If some people are meant to play a role in your life be it significant or not,they were there for a reason.If they choose to leave,let it be.There's no show on this earth that will run 24/7.Heck even Oprah Show will come to an end soon.

The other thing that i have learn t is not to make an early assumption.I got called up to do a flight recently with this Captain that enough said people will take MC if flying with him. I was as usual being grumpy and pissed but at the back of my head 'Let's just get over it' you know.To my surprise he is actually not as bad as what people portrayed him to be.Or maybe i was just plain lucky and he's in a good mood.

Being a Virgo and a Perfectly Melancholic (my personality type based on a book that i read) person that i am, i am a pessimist.I believed that every single action from people around me got an ulterior motive.Those are my weaknesses.Let's not even talk about gaining trust.It'll take a long time for me to trust someone.As i said in my many many post before,i am not any younger.Tho some people say. 'Oh please you're a baby,you got long way to go'. I think i am settling down. I think i am old and smart enough not to let the smallest littlest thing to bother me.

For example,yesterday,someone pisses me off so badly that it spoilt my mood the whole day.On my day off. I wouldn't want to tell the details why i pissed off because some of you might think that it is really not a big of a deal.But it sure is for me.I organized my own plan.What i want to do,where i want to go etc.If i want to do something and someone decided to accompany me,fine if you think that you can fit in the plan.But if you screwed up and acted as if you did nothing wrong,that's it.I am just really tired of putting so much trust and confidence,giving chances to people but in the end they take it for granted.I may have my expectations high,but you chose to deal with it earlier then deal with it now! I am not as cold and heartless as i turned out to be,i acted like one so that i won't succumbed to my emotions.You can never see me barking and yelling when i am not happy.I will choose to be quiet but my emotions will be depicted on my face clearly.What pisses me off the most was because lately i only get minimum days of after days of flying.When i am off,i like to make the most of it and reward myself after those tiring days.It's the only thing that i look forward to.That is why it is a big deal for me.We did continue with the plan anyway to watch a play at KLPac cause the ticket has been booked.Luckily the play was really good. In the audience last night,there's a group from the Malaysian Deaf Association members watching the show.So throughout the entire play,there's a women siting in front of them and translating every single thing with hand signals.It got me thinking how i am so lucky and blessed, that when i wake up i get to breath,see,smell and hear everything.Sometimes this very little thing that we tend to forget everyday.So thank God for that,and thank you God for all the people that i have met along the way for they have taught me the meaning of life.

Just because you love someone doesn't mean that you have to be involved with them.Love is not a bandage to cover wounds.

Mt. Kinabalu

On descent to KUL

And I wish I could lay down beside you

When the day is done

And wake up to your face against the morning sun

But like everything I've ever known

you'll disappear one day

So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away

And I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart away

Set fire to the rain

2011-03-28T19:49:00.002+08:00

I just got back from Siem Reap and Phnom Penh.Who knew we could have so much fun there! Angkor Wat and Tonle Sap is just amazing.It sure does gave me different perspective in life.We really should be lucky living in Malaysia.Visited the Genocide museum in Phnom Penh. I couldn't entered the last building because it's just so sad.Yeah i'm very emotional like that.What happened there was just really beyond words.So cruel and devastating.Phnom Penh was exciting as well.Met new friends there from Philippines,local Cambodians and LA.Who knew one of them is a huge Vietnamese artist! I felt like a socialite hanging out with them.Argh now that i'm back in KL it means work :( I always have this funny feelings after hols.Hmm..if only traveling is a paying job.

Oh baby!

2011-03-28T18:30:00.000+08:00

Remember somewhere last year i went to Kuching to meet one of my good friend's wife who gave birth.Well she is so big now! Went to the zoo with her recently.Can't remember the last time i went there even though it's only 10 mins away from my house haha but it sure been years.The state of the zoo is just so sad.Pity the animals there.

They grow too fast aren't they babies?

Better to lie

2011-03-28T18:18:00.001+08:00

Hello guys! Excuse the absence.Was traveling a lot for the past two months.Last month i went to Jakarta and Bandung.again.Right after i finished my class at the Academy i thought why not go somewhere since i have few days off.So off i went to the airport and called my mum to tell her where i'm going.She asked me who i'm going with? Since Sharman and Foxy was working i told her that i'm going alone.Then she said she wanted to follow.I told her that i'm going to take the next flight out and if she insist on coming she can take the last flight and meet me in Jakarta.The next thing i know she knocked my hotel room together with my two sisters.LOL.Cause my father asked them to follow since he won't be around in KL.But anyway,it was alright.Indonesia is still the same.Love to shop there but the traffic can be a pain in the arse.Most of the times. We were supposed to take a train to Bandung cause i wanted to see the scenery but it was the weekend and the tickets were sold out.So we rented a car instead.The normal two hours journey ended up to be 4 hours.Great.So that was it.

Went to Phuket early of the month for a conference.Everything was sponsored so couldn't complain much.Even though it's a work trip with all the management pilots and instructors,i actually did have fun.Well since i was the youngest,naive(aherm) guy there,so i got bullied a lot by them.It was all for pure fun.One night we went out,i would say around 15 of us to Patong to have dinner.After dinner we went for a massage,i got myself a foot massage fyi ;P and after that,let's just say it was the night that i will never forget in my entire life.It was so embarrassing,there's a stage and pole involved (go figure) in front of a whole bunch of Captains.The next morning,everybody in the conference knows about it and i got teased for the whole entire evening and up until now whenever i bump into them at the office.Morale of the story : Never ever tell the truth.Lie if it can save you from poles,stage and hookers. Bugger i shouldn't be too naive.Hahah.Here's a few pictures from the trip.The resort (Blue Marine Resort and Spa) was super nice but the only thing is the location is not strategic.

I'll be waiting

2011-03-04T22:00:00.000+08:00

This person has never failed to inspire me in every way.I used to blog about her sometime last year.She came up with new album and i have to say i am forever more in love with her.Beg,borrow or steal you guys.I got a few tracks that i couldn't stop listening to.This is one of em'. Heck i even dream of the song last night. Oh by the way,things are as usual hectic.When it's not hectic,i would be spending time reading my books,listening to songs,check out hotties at the mall and waste time with the usual crazy peeps.I seriously do not know which part of my life is interesting enough to share with you guys.Tho i do face some unusual scenarios like diverting to another airfield because of weather in KL,forgot where i parked my car (ok this is not unusual) and getting all the unnecessary attentions.Oh well some people can be really funny that's all i can say.

"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead"

Same old rock,and repeat,and go back

2011-02-14T21:13:00.000+08:00

Another awesome singer that i discovered some time ago.This song means so much to me.Reminds me that everything will turn alright in the end.Somehow someway.Have a good listen :)

Everybody needs a little time,

To heal,a broken heart,

Don't apologize,I've been there,

It may take a month or two,

Or years,to finally say goodbye

To your memories of him (just)

Take your time,

And dry your eyes,please

Take your time,my dear

Fix up,Look sharp

2011-02-04T17:16:00.002+08:00

You know there's this one day where whatever that you do or intended to do is just not right and failed miserably as if the world is in some sort of conspiracy to make you feel down? There's one time a couple of weeks ago when i was on standby 2 which means it start at 9:30am until 3:30 pm. I thought of doing some productive activities instead of not doing anything at home i.e go to the bank,go to the dentist,buy stationary etc.

So there i went to the bank early,right at that bloody moment where i want to get the numbers,boom there's a power shortage thus put a halt to the banking operations.ok boom sounds a bit dramatic but you get the idea.So i thought okayyy never mind i can just walk to this new dental clinic right behind the building only to find out that they're closed! i was starting to get pissed off. But no worries there's another three clinic around the area.I was a bit reluctant to move my car since to find an empty parking spot in that business area is just almost impossible at that hour.Anyway it was scorching hot that day so i got no choice but to drive to the next clinic.

Then i found a parking spot close enough to the clinic.But! there's few city council officers around were doing some random check and issuing summons car to car to those who didn't pay for the parking ticket.When i look at my coin comparent in the car i realized that i do not have any single coins,not a single coin with me. I was like shitttt! Why oh why. Ok never mind i went to the shop nearby and asked whether i can change my note to coins and yes they dont have it either. Can you believe it? I got no choice again but to move my car. I do not want to get any summons as i've learnt my lessons when i had to pay 400bucks for illegal parking at the airport.

Next i went to the stationary shop to buy some stuff and thought of reloading my touch n go card since they can do it. But no,right at the moment their servers went down.

So i went again to the other clinic and for some reason they are closed as well!

I was like that's it im gonna go back and sleep. That's exactly what i did. And thank God they didnt call me up for flight. If not i would've been the biggest bitch in flight that day.

Last two days i flew with this Captain. An expat. Right from the beginning when i greet him at flight ops i didnt like him and i knew it's not gonna be a pleasant flight. I was like damn it,it's pekan baru and surabaya. It's gonna be one hell of a long day.Boy was i right! He was so annoying and utterly rude to the cabin crew.Everything is just not right for him. He keeps complaining,asking ridiculous stuff to the ATC which i had to do when he's flying,it was really embarrassing really. I just couldn't wait for the flight to be over. During the last sector he flew back to KUL and right before we were docking in,he said something that really just make my hair stands up and my blood boiling. I was like 'Bitch whatt?! you did not just said that and put it on me!' Of course i didn't say it out loud.In the word of Kelly 'Cause my momma taught me better than that!' If it weren't because of my dad's name and the reputation that i have to hold,i would have just lashed out and scream at the top of my lung in front of him. But i know it is not worth it. After the flight i didn't even look at him nor thank him. He tried to crack a joke with me but i just acted dumb.That type of person does not deserve my attention. I do love flying trust me but this type of people just making me feel like giving up on everything.I hope i can find the determination and courage to continue.

On a lighter note,while walking to the aircraft yesterday i bump into Sharman. He was just getting off from the flight. It was a peak hour,everybody was walking in every direction,i was too excited to give him updates on the things we talked last night i stopped in the middle for a short while.Right after we finished talking like for a brief 10 secs as i turned and start walking bammmm! I swear this is real,i hit into this lady with a baby in a stroller and another toddler holding her hand.F**k! Everybody was looking and i swear right at that moment i feel like walking right into the aircraft engines and let 'em suck me in. aiyooo it was embarrassing i tell you and i didnt look back after that and walk faster to catch up with my Captain.FML.

You got me gone

2011-01-31T12:35:00.000+08:00

Here we go,the last day of January 2011,where are all the days gone? Sorry guys been very busy with work.If i'm not flying,i'll be at the academy and if i really am not working i'll be lazying at home crying my heart out watching some sad sappy love story.Ok the later one is not true.But i did watched a couple of really good movies this few days.I finally found this place where they sell all this foreign language film (pirated)DVD's! Boy was i excited! Cause i really am not the downloading type of guy,i normally leave the job to other tech savvy people.Anyway my connection at home sucks so bad,to download a movie would take yearsssss.I've experienced this feeling where i feel like slamming my laptop (which already making an aircond noise like sound for the past few years) because the speed is unbearably slow.I used streamyx before and God knows why my dad changed to P1wimax and it's even worse.I thought it's supposed to get better? Am seriously consider changing it to unifi.Any thoughts or feedback guys?

The past weeks has been quite interesting as well.I flew with so many great Captains that inspired me in finding what i want to make out of this career as well as few issues in living the life.I have to say i am nowhere near what i want to become.But trust me i am working on it. The most important thing and you probably heard it countless time,one must enjoy what they're doing to be happy.If you're not happy do yourself a favor and find something that will make you happy.It's the same as finding a partner in life.I was chit chatting with my cabin crew yesterday while waiting for the aircraft (flight was delayed for an hour,weather in KL is crap lately),she's a very attractive single lady in her 30's,was supposed to get married few months back with a very very rich prominent figure in the industry,but she postponed it.In her other word,she doesn't think that she want to marry that guy even though this issues has put on some strain in her relationship with her own parents.She said that she used to think that money will solve everything and somehow along the way she'll learn to love the guy but now she realizes it's not everything.I totally respect her decision and her senses. Take some guts to do that when you already spent years together and knowing that she's already in her 30's.The other crew is happily married with her high schoolmate after separated for years.Oh well,life works on it's own mysterious ways.

Chinese New Year in few days time.I'll be working throughout the week and have my break the week after all this fiasco. I'm so looking forward to the getaway.So this year is the rabbit year,since i was a born in a rabbit year,i hope this year will bring me more prosperous and happiness. I have a strong feeling that it will. Sharman posted this whole characteristic/personality of people born in the rabbit year,and i must say ALL of it are true! Especially the Romance part.LOL.You can click HERE to read. Happy Chinese New Year to all my beautiful Chinese friends.

Dream awake

2011-01-14T23:22:00.001+08:00

Hey guys,how are you all doing? Hope you guys are well.I wasn't in a pink of health for the past week.Not bedridden unwell but a lil bit under the weather.Funny when we're sick we get all this crazy random thoughts,i literally feel like i'm dying at one point,that was really ridiculous.I think it got something to do with hormones.I don't know.Bloody hormones.Anyway,i miss writing. I really do.I miss a lot of other things as well for example doing arts.I was going through some old stuff the other day (funny habits that i do when i am sick) and found my art book. There was a point in my life not too long ago where i was obsessed with painting,drawing all this sort of art works you know.I still do actually it's just that it takes whole lot of your time,i can't just sit for hours now to do that.It reminds me of how good the feeling was once i completed something and i miss that. Never mind that i never showed it to anyone,i am actually proud of my work.

The other thing that i like to do is read back all my journals.I started writing one since i was 12 years old.So i have been actually keeping journals for more than a decade.It only occurred to me that i actually have outgrown a lot of things.My sense of writing was different,my thoughts are different.This year i am right at the age where i should start worrying about getting engaged and married.Heck most of my friends not all but quite a number of them are engaged.Some are married.Does that give me any pressure to follow steps? Not really.I am a pessimist when it comes to marriage and love.Pathetic i know.I couldn't care less.No i actually DO care.But i vowed and promise myself few years back that i wouldn't let myself be vulnerable again.I guess what doesn't kill you make you stranger.

I feel kinda old this year really.I am scared that i couldn't get to be the person i wanted to be.Time is ticking fast.It's already middle of January for God sake.Feels like yesterday i was in front of Taipei 101 counting down to new year,the next thing we know we'll be counting down to the last 10 seconds of this year.Recently one of fellow pilot passed away due to chest pain.Heart attacked i supposed.He was only 29 years old with a wife due for their first child this month.How ironic and sad is that? It makes me realize everything is impermanent in this world.Every single bloody thing.No matter how hard you try,if it were not meant to be it just won't.People around us can leave in a jiffy.You can leave in a split seconds.Question is,what if we couldn't say the things we wish we could,do things we wish we could and change things we wish we could?

Life is all about making choices.Good choices bad choices it doesn't matter because in the end we still need to make one and live by it.I've made few bad choices in my life and i am glad i did that.If not i wouldn't discovered what i am capable of and what are my limits.I have to admit that i am an emotional twat.Really i am.I don't know what i want at times.Most of the times.I would wake up in the morning wanting to go to One Utama and the next thing i know i am at KLCC parking lot.My mind changes drastically.It's not even funny really.But i think i made few good friends who's willing to deal with that and i am forever grateful for their understanding.I can be such a pain the arse sometimes i admit that.Thank you loves for everything.

Ok i seriously don't know where this is going or what my point is.Anyway,most important is cherish the person you have when they are still around,it is ok if they decide to leave one day,as long there's a sincerity in our heart and we didn't expect anything in return then we'll be fine.People always leave.So do we.We can't be something that we're not.Just be true to who you are.

p/s: I watched a local Chinese movie 'Great Day' and really it made my day.I have this thing with everything Chinese ;)

Close your eyes,listen to this song and understand the lyrics.

Don't lose who you are,in the blurs of the stars,

Seeing is deceiving,dreaming is believing,

It's okay not to be okay

Sometimes it's hard,to follow your heart,

Tears doens't mean you're losing,everybody's bruising,

Just be true who you are

Xīn Nián Kuài Lè !

2011-01-06T12:52:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year people! How was your celebration? I had the best holiday and new year's celebration in my entire life! Went to Taipei with the same usual people.Told ya i don't have many friends ;) Anyway,luckily we have a Taiwanese friend over there so that pretty much solves the communication and direction problems.I swear to God really i had soooo much fun,the day we parted i almost cried.There just too many stuff to write,too many funny incidents i would like to share and now that i'm writing i feel too lazy to elaborate.lol.So let's just roll the pictures ya!

Promise This

2010-12-29T22:51:00.001+08:00

In few days time we will welcome yet another new year.As cliche as it sounds,time flies really fast.I've achieved quite a few things,I've met so many interesting people,I've experienced something i would never think of and I stepped outside the box. I am actually proud of myself for being able to survive this year.Let's hope for a another blessed and amazing new year.2011 bring it on! Resolutions? I'll keep it to myself ;)

Thank you all for being there.To those who remained and as well as to those who left.Cause i wouldn't give it to the world for the experience we've shared. Have a safe and fun holidays everyone.Now i gotta pack up for my impromptu trip.I hope the weather will be kind.

p/s: I really wish i could write a heart wrenching, eye tearing long post and recap 2010 but I really need to pack up.Gosh i hate packing.

I don't mind hurtin'

2010-12-22T22:58:00.000+08:00

I went to Bangkok last weekend with the usual crazy peeps.Even though we were really on a tight budget,we managed to have fun! We discovered new places and met new people it's just so exciting.I actually wanted to cry when we landed in KL.I don't want the trip to end :( Why can't our life be an endless vacation where we don't have to work?
The flight to Bangkok was fun because we bump into few of other crews who were traveling together and the FAs on board that aircraft was also a crazy bunch of friends so the 2 hour journey felt like 10 minutes!

Can i just skip work and start my new year's holiday now?!

You're my favourite mistake

2010-12-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

I did my base check last night and thank God i passed.Tho that was really not my best performance.It was really embarrassing come to think of it.You see for my session i was given this failure where the sub sequence effects would be the loss of auto thrust and auto pilot which mean that i got to fly the aircraft manually. So here's the thing, most of the times,if we're talking about real flying,we barely hold/touch the thrust levers and joystick.The only time we're fondling (lol word!) with this two mechanism is during take off and landing.Yes i know,you must be thinking then what the hell are we doing inside the cockpit.I'm not gonna waste my time and explain everything cause really i couldn't care less if people think we are over paid.Anyway,yeah i got to fly the aircraft (simulator) on manual and sweet lord if i fly like that in the real aircraft all the pax behind will turn blue.I was up and down,turning left and right to intercept the ILS. Oh God,really i don't know what was i thinking/doing.Luckily towards the end of the session i got the hold of it.It was not my proudest moment but whatever was done is done.

I was supposed to send my car for servicing few weeks back but since i was so busy i only got the chance to do it today.It was for a minor service initially but then one after another they discovered some things here and there that needed to be replaced like pronto.The way the foreman explained scared the shit out of me,he was like 'Bro can you see this timing belt?It will rip off anytime!,Look at the power steering oil? It's so dirty! I'm afraid that suddenly you can't turn your steering! Your engine need tuning,see the carbon,if not it will die on the road!' Being a complete noob that i am when it comes to car,of course i just agreed with everything.I don't want the car to die suddenly on the road and not knowing what to do!.Shit if it happens i don't know who to call also.Seriously i don't know what is the function of timing belt and our car got water pump meh?
Total cost of everything is freaking RM1200! *bang head*

I'm currently reading 'Angela's Ashes' by Frank McCourt,a gift from Kak Jen.I don't know why but I'll be super duper happy when i got books.Anyway,i haven't finish reading it yet,i can easily finish it fast but i like it so much i don't want it to end (it was the same case with Harry Potter's series ;P) so i kinda procrastinate in finishing it and this book easily makes it to the top 5 best books I've ever read.

I was flicking through the channels just now and desperate housewives was on,I'm intrigued with one of the dialogue/scene where Bree was trying to hold up in getting in a relationship/sleeping with this guy by making all kind of excuses(She's still married and the guy is her divorce lawyer,she doesn't want to commit adultery).The guy said 'You know what,i don't think you want this relationship to happen at all,you keep making excuses,you're not sure what you want,you're just busy trying to be good all the time that you forgot your own happiness'. It got me thinking,did i turned into one?

I know it's not your fault,but i'm a locked door

And inside i'm a mess by someone before

And i wish that i,i could find a key

To unlock all the things you want us to be

Let me open up and start again

But there's a safe a round my heart

I don't know how to let you in

And that's what keeps us apart

I'm a locked door

2010-12-15T00:25:00.001+08:00

I just got back from my company's annual dinner.I never attended any of my company's function before so i thought that i might give it a try this year.The one and only reason why i decided to go this year was because of the lucky draw.Well let's just say you stand a chance to win thousands of cash and God knows what are the probabilities of getting it.Anyway,i only lasted there for half an hour.I regretted i even make the effort to drive and got dressed to attend it.Why? simply because i didn't enjoy myself.I don't like the crowd,the vibes and everything,it suffocates me furthermore i practically do not know most of them there.Let's just say i do not know 98% of the people there! Heck i can count how many people i know from my company.

I also found it rather annoying and pathetic that one have to drink and smoke to fit in a small group in a corner here,talk crap in another group there.That's just not me.Am i boring? yeah i think so.Or maybe i am just getting older.So yeah the hell with lucky draws and socializing.Now im off reading my book.Goodnight people.

Just run away

From these lies

Back to yesterday

Safe tonight

I feel the sun creeping up like tick tok

I'm trying to keep you in my head but if not

We'll just keep running from tomorrow with our lips locked

Stay running from tomorrow

2010-12-08T21:41:00.000+08:00

Do people still read? Oh well.

A penny for my thoughts,oh no,I'll sell em' for a dollar

They're worth so much more after I'm a goner

And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singing

Funny,when you're dead how people start listening

Just because

2010-10-25T00:45:00.001+08:00

I've been watching a lot of movies involving getting pregnant and babies lately.They definitely ignited the desires to have one or maybe 10's of my own.I have always love kids.When they're not talking.Lol i'm kidding.Kids are just so wonderful.There's this innocence about them or in us (when we were kids) that remind us how beautiful and easy life would be without all the judgments and hatred around us.If any kids approached you and say something like 'Abang/Kakak ni handsome/cantik' you have every right to be 'kembang' cause they speak the truth nothing but the truth! And no,no kids ever came up to me and say that.My whole point is i think kids bring the better side of you.When you're around them they're remind us how great life is and always been only we fail to realize that in our own adult world.

So of course in order to have kids you need to get married.Legally having kids i meant.Being a self-centered like i always stressed out,that would be a difficult case for me.No marriage for me.I was watching Guiliana and Bill show the other day,my eyes got a bit watery seeing how difficult for her to conceive baby and could only imagine the suffer of waiting for IVF result and so on.Well in that particular show the result was positive and she got pregnant.I just googled her as i'm writing this and it's so sad to read that she suffered a miscarriage somewhere in September this year.After numerous attempt of IVF.Sigh.Funny how some people can just throw babies like cats but some people in the world are spending thousands just to conceived.

p/s: The best rendition of Whataya Want From Me.Still have shivers every time listening to it.More over when listening to it live that day.

Take me for a ride

2010-10-21T00:57:00.001+08:00

Since the image uploads thingy is due to maintenance at the moment i guess that left me with no other choice but to write.Hahaha i was thinking to just post some random pictures just to make up with the long absence.How are you all doing happy people? Hope you guys are doing well.

It's been weeks since my last update,as usual my life is all about the same shit,as if you guys kisah la kan.But i am still going to bore you guys with the details ;)

I think i did mentioned that my Melbourne trip last month was canceled right? Since i got more or less two weeks annual leave together with Sharman we decided to make an Asian trip instead.Not only it'll be much cheaper,it is also a good chance for us to explore new scenes.Even though I've been to all the places before but this time it was different.We kicked off the trip with Phuket.Phuket is still as awesome as the last time i went there.I have a feeling that we're going to frequent that place a lil bit more than any other places ;).

After Phuket we went to Hong Kong.Oh how i love the public transportation system.I think i already mentioned about how awesome they are in my last year's post.They are just so fantastic it's embarrassing how far we're behind them.So much for a wawasan 2020.But still i find the city is normal not much hype about it.We explored the whole Kowloon and Hong Kong island the same day.Not a place that i will visit any sooner.

Right after Hong Kong,off we went to Bangkok. We often got mistakenly identified as Thai all the time.We were thought as Filipino when we were in Hong Kong tho.Our face so Asean one! This time Bangkok was different.Probably because we've discovered some new places that i've never been before.

We ended the trip with Penang to celebrate Mr.Foxtrot's birthday as he was night stopping there on his birthday.So that was our short but fun trip.I definitely experience whole lot of new things,doing silly stuff which taught me more about life in general.

I wish i could post of some interesting pictures but then like i said the image uploads thing are not working at the moment.

After the trip,life was back to normal.Actually it was a wee bit off track in the beginning.I was confused,frustrated and being such a bitch for few days or maybe the first few weeks due to some problems that piled up and causes a major disturbance in my head.Enough to say that i wasn't being myself and funny thing is i can't controlled it! There's just this stuff inside my head that won't bug off,i even had nightmares while sleeping.But as the time passes by i believe i got to rationalize things and start over again.I just hope it won't come back again.Or maybe even if it will,i will get to fight the negative thoughts because really come to think of it,i'm blessed with so many things in my life.Instead of counting my blessing,i took them for granted and fret about something that i don't have.

We are all human beings after all,sure we got skidded outside the path once in a while but that doesn't mean that we will forever be lost.God has his own ways in reminding us.That's what i've learnt.

The other reason that i went 'missing' for a while was because i lost my phone.Funny how you feel like your world just end when this one stupid little gadget is no longer with you.I lost it at my gym due to my own stupidity.Like i said my head was a bit off lately.I've had so many 'Hari Bodoh' i literally feel like jumping off building already.Anyway yeah i lost my phone,and i panicked right after that.How can you not panic la kan? Thank God i don't have any naked pictures or some sort.But they were some private notes that i wish no one would read it.I just wish that the pencuri is either bodoh or don't read english that's all. With that incident i just can't help but to feel disgusted with the mentality of some people today.How could someone would want to take some other people's stuff and feel okay about it the day after or even for the rest of their life? I know i wouldn't! It is just so sad.I feel sad for that person actually.Like what Kak Jen said 'You go to they gym and you pay for it but still you want to steal other people stuff.FF members don't do that' Lol maybe i should switch club kan kak Jen.

But i believe there's a reason why it happened.Prior to losing my phone on the same day,i was doing some cleaning in my room and i found my old phone.I thought that i lost it somewhere all this time.I guess that was a sign isn't it that i will be needing it soon.Like real soon.

So guys really just be careful with your stuff.We can never really trust the people around us especially strangers.On the safer side no need la to take all those sexy pictures of your body ok later got stolen the next thing you know your pictures all over the internet with some really lame malay title.Let's not talk about losing your wallet.With IC,cards and all.God forbid.

Some time last week,on the 10/10/10 to be exact,i've experienced my first go around at Ho Chi Minh.Luckily it was not my sector but seriously i've never gotten into a weather that bad! It was so bad we couldn't see anything and when the autopilot is off in a split second we were on the right of the runway.Ok itu je nak cerita.Have a good week people.

You talk,I walk

2010-10-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

Yo! Oh well my rendang should be basi already by now just like what trichy/Foxtrot said.Sorry guys i am just really really lazy lately to put my thoughts into words.I could just really put up whole bunch of pictures and let them do the talking but honestly i do miss writing.I miss to do a lot of things.Why can't we have more than 24 hours in a day? Everything moves so fast before before we even settled with one thing,here we are still catching our breath focusing on doing something else.Felt like only few days ago we celebrated Raya and now it's already the end of Syawal.Man,why can't we have Syawal every month.I love the smell and spirit of Raya season.

For the past few months i've learnt and experienced a lot of things.I don't even know where to begin.It's just so exhilarating I've met so many new people that eventually became friends.I did few crazy things as usual.

Today would be the last day of my annual leave.Yes i was technically on leave for two weeks thus explained the absence.Tomorrow back to flying and seriously i don't have the heart or desire to go to work.I guess that's pretty normal after a long break.We were supposed to head down to Melbourne to visit one of my bestfriends down there.I've actually been saving and looking forward to it for months to be honest but due to unforeseen problems and some stupidity involved,the trip didn't happen.I was really pissed off with myself because lately everything i did just doesn't seem right.I've so many thoughts and stuff to do or at least that's what i thought,and the fact that i'm the biggest procrastinator in the world does not helped either.

No matter how hard i try to convince myself that i haven't changed and remained the same person that i used to be,deep down i knew that i am not.Yes i have changed,i admit that.We all do as we're growing older.Working environment and studying is a total different thing.When we were in our studying phase,there's like this safe blanket that protect us from the outside world,we were in our comfort zone surrounded with friends who more or less face the same thing everyday.But once you started working,everything is on your own.There's no safety bubble to protect you,you're like this raw juicy meat waiting to be eaten by the hungry predators.

I was given a new responsibility to handle regarding my job.As much as it will benefit my career progress in the future,it is actually not a position that i wanted to be in.I was pressured to accept it as i did not want to be seen as weak and un-ambitious.I took it because it's the right thing to do.Sometimes i wish i could just act my age and be irresponsible for once in my life but i couldn't.How i wish someone would understand and tell me everything is gonna be ok.Because i honestly think i'm on the edge of losing it.

Selamat Hari Raya!

2010-09-09T16:21:00.001+08:00

A quick post, selamat hari raya my gentle readers! I'll be back after raya.Have a safe holiday :) Now i have to get back attending my rendang!

Be your fantasy

2010-08-20T22:11:00.001+08:00

What is the big deal of being single seriously? Look i am not against those people who chose to be in relationship.I actually thought that it's kinda nice and sweet yada yada for someone to have the other half to rely on etc.But really i just can't see myself in that situation.Ok i might regret what i said right now in the future but that is actually how i feel at the moment.Maybe i am just not lucky enough to experience all that? i do not know.

If you asked me whether i am happy,i can say i'm pretty much happy,not gleefully happy but on the right amount of dose i'm alright.Except that i'm pretty much sure you all should know by now that the only thing that pisses me off is bad flights.Other than that family is fine,best friends are great.I think i am being too comfortable with my situation right now i can't except something or someone outside the circle.Maybe when all my best friends are started to have the other half for themselves i should start worrying!

Recently someone that i got to know has put on some serious interest in me.Well i do like the attention given as it doesn't really happen that often,believe it or not i ain't selling that well on the market.lol.Or maybe i just plain jual mahal only.But my whole point is,it made me realize that i am not the type of person that someone should consider to be a partner with.I really am not.Too much attention,lovey dovey stuff,the idea of intimacy just suffocates me.I am used to do all things by my own self,too independent which is not healthy,self-centered,and all sort of other things.

But like i said it's not wrong to be in relationship.It is not.I think it's beautiful but naaa thanks not for me.
I am surrounded with gorgeous sometimes insanely beautiful people around me,i could be in a relationship if i wanted to but i have my priorities and goals in life.I want to see the world,i want to travel,i want to do crazy things and before i achieve all that,i will remain single.

It's Dynamite

2010-08-16T22:52:00.001+08:00

Hope it's not too late to wish you guys Selamat Berpuasa!

Now where do i start,there's so many stuff going on.Let's start with my Phuket trip.It was all very last minute but hey isn't that the fun part.The situation where you just grab anything that you can,toss it inside a bag and off you go to the airport.Went there with Mr.Foxtrot cause the other partner in crime (Shamu) was working.We met at Phuket itself cause we traveled with different airlines.Our hotel was located in Patong Beach where all the hot spots are.As a matter of fact our hotel was connected with the biggest mall in Phuket,the Jungceylon,so that was kind of convenient and cool.Couldn't pick any place better.I took the last flight out from KL since i was actually on standby that day,i don't want to take the risk,take an earlier flight and got called up.No way.Will be putting myself too much trouble with the company only.

Anyway,it's was a very short trip only two nights but it was sure one of the most memorable trip ever.I went above my limits,i did something that i never thought i would/could do,i was actually proud of myself on few occasions.I am so proud that i literally will smile and laugh right until now whenever i thought about it.Nightlife there was fantastic.It was even better than Bali.We made friends with total strangers.It was really total madness and definitely not something that i would do in KL.

We went bungy jumping and we shot with a real gun! How awesome is that!

And that's me!

That was Mr Foxtrot.My video was a lil bit too embarrassing to put up with all the screaming.lol

Next trip? After Raya hopefully!

The Engagement

2010-08-08T17:34:00.001+08:00

Someone's got engaged yaw! Congratulations to both of them.More pictures will come up in her blog.Im so proud and happy for both of you guys ra ;) now let's focus on the wedding reception lol!

Naturally

2010-07-30T12:00:00.000+08:00

Whoa! So long didn't update.Sorry guys been extremely busy ;P The same excuses again and again.Just enjoy the pictures for the time being ok.I'll be back i promise!

Mr Independent

2010-07-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

There's so many stuff to write i don't even know where to begin.Let's start with the Bali trip i guess.Bali was beyond FUN.It wouldn't be as much fun if i were to go alone.I had the best people around me and everything was just perfect.We did all sort of crazy things.I literally mean CRAZY.Even thinking about it is making me smile right now.We went to places we weren't supposed to be,or turned out not as what we expected it to be,we see thing's we're not supposed to see (lol),we walked for one hour along the beach because we thought we can see our hotel from far but actually ours is wee bit further than that.Went for diving for the first time which was scary at first.We covered most of the main attraction in Bali,had lunch at one of the most scenic and surreal scenery on top of volcano mountain.Not literally on top of course.Most important thing was we had the best 'shower time!' experience one could possible had.Hahahaha.I'll spare the details since we already signed a P&C letter.I'll bring those whoever interested in witnessing the event next time :P

So that was our Bali trip.It was really one of the best time i had in my life so far.It was that good.I really can't wait for the next trip.

Next,Usher! Wasn't planning on going at first since i was actually on standby that day.But they didn't call me up thank you God,so i went alone.Yes.I felt like such a i don't know what to say.But i saw there's another dude who went there alone as well so i think i'm normal.After all it's freaking Usher damn it! Bila lagi nak datang kan?

I did few things that i am not proud of recently.But i guess we learned from experience isn't it? A lil bit off track from the path and trying to get back on before i got lost completely.Got to find the strength and will ya'll! In the mean time have a good day.I'll write something better and worth mentioning apart from this crap later.To all the people who has been and still standing in my life,thank you for being there.

p/s: i really need to read a freaking damn good book.All the books that i've been reading for the past few months still can't beat Rohinton Mistry's and Salman Rushdie's.So please anyone suggest me a really good worth reading one?

It's Usher baby!

2010-07-10T14:32:00.000+08:00

Shower time in Bali

2010-07-06T13:18:00.001+08:00

The escapist

2010-06-27T22:42:00.004+08:00

I'm supposed to be on standby tomorrow but knowing my company of course they would call me up for flight.But luckily they changed it today so that i don't have to drive in shitty mood tomorrow.At least i'm mentally prepared you know.Which also will be my last day of working before the much anticipated trip! Funny how all the people that will be going,will be flying tomorrow! But we wouldn't mind because this trip will be so much fun.I hope it will :)

This month marks the highest number of Kota Bharu sector for me.Three times.Considering that i rarely got that route for the past few months.I love it cause it's a short sector and they always pair up with Phuket which means that i get to go home early.Noticed that the Apac's callsign is up to 20**? And for instructors was like 33?wow that place really is growing aren't they? I did hear one of my personal instructor's call sign Apac 04 but didn't get to say hye over the RT.I knew that my CPL instructor's Apac 08 was no longer there.Lucky you all new batches ;P Yeah for some reason,in my batch,i'm the only one who always got those fierce and scary instructors.I seriously don't know why.Even up until the airlines,my line check was with this Captain who can make you wet in your pants easily.Why me la of all people? But i guess there's always a blessing in disguise isn't it?

I've come to term with the issues i'm dealing with.Cause i'm always drama like that.lol But heck aren't we all?,we had our days,so we just need to deal with it.It'll get better in times.

Oh it's world cup season already? I must've sleep for the past 2 weeks i guess.I don't root for any teams nor do i watch any of those matches either.Simply because i couldn't find time to watch it.Or mainly because i'm not a fan.hiks.

Sharman and Foxtrot asked me a very good question the other day about having regrets of not being able to make things right or say something before the person is gone.I think that i've said enough,i've tried and really if things are not gonna work out,they are meant to be that way.I know it is very selfish and very wrong of me to cut people from my life easily,but hey,that's just me and it's a wee bit too late for me to change all that.
Some people thought that when they found the right person,the perfect partner everything will be alright.The world is theirs,and nothing else will come in between.Nothing else mattered,so what if they lose friends right,they still got the 'other half'.Or that's what they thought.Little that they all know,in which part of agreement that said we will always have what we got.for eternity?.Call me pathetic and sad for having that kind of thought but honey that's the reality.People engaged for 5 years can broke off.People got married for 50 years can divorce.People met for only 2 months can get married and live together until they died.So we're never sure of what the future holds for us.Regarding the question,yes i will do have regrets as much as i tried to avoid it but at least i've tried to make things work.

I'll be back after the trip insyaAllah.See you guys soon!

Been in love with her even before she won the grammy.The whole album is fantastic.

Round my hometown,memories are fresh
Round my hometown,ooh the people i've met
Are the wonders of my world,are the wonders of my world
Are the wonders of this world,are the wonders and now

Back to black

2010-06-25T20:44:00.000+08:00

I'm so upbeat and excited about the upcoming trip.The thought of it is the only thing that keep me sane at the moment.I did few stupid things lately.I wouldn't call it a mistake since i actually gained or learned something out of it.Sharman jangan gelak.

Other than that life is pretty boring and mundane.No i still did not kill anyone tho i thought of killing someone.Actually more than one.But i wouldn't do that,if not who want to update my blog kan if i got jailed.Eceh.

Oklah i need to sleep early.Tomorrow early morning flight.Too early.Siapa la nak pergi Singapore 6:15 in the morning.

Kek Lok Si

2010-06-23T14:30:00.000+08:00

Seriously can anyone else be any hotter than this? !

p/s: Cheryl said 'Anything that's worth having,Is sure enough worth fighting for'. This time i think it's not worth to fight for.I will not keep in touch,i will detached myself and i will not see you in KL next month or forever.

Lack of sugar and whole lot of other thing

2010-06-15T23:21:00.001+08:00

Eh still got people reading meh? To all you lovely people who wasted few secs or minutes in your life googling my blog and spare me the attention which i'm not worth of, i shall honored you with darjah kebesaran kesetiaan abadi which carries the title 'Yang Gigih' from the humble nation of flyfreaknation. I love you all my lil monsters. So gaga-ish.what's with the alejandro vid anyway,like seriously? They over do it up to a point that you literally went numb watching it.

Anyway! I've promised myself that i will write more often,ummm i think i've said that quite a few times. It's just you know la,when i'm back from work,i'll get tired,when at night i thought i rather be sleeping. On my days off,i'll be umm doing nothing actually.hiks. So bare with me la ok.

I'm not in my best mood lately. Heck i don't know when is the last time i had my 'best mood'.if i ever experienced it. The fact that i flew 6 days straight does not help either. Yes you heard that right. 6 freakin days. I swear i became such a bitch that i flip out at every single thing. You really don't want to mess with me at that moment. At this moment also as we speak cause i haven't actually recovered yet from the exhaustion. It does not help either when the 'keep in touch' person decided to showed up again,only to leave,again! but this time with another message 'please do not detached yourself'. What is that even supposed to mean?! Pffttt really that's exactly what i needed the most right now.

I think i shall talk less about flying now. I've noticed the growing numbers of aviation related blogs from other pilots as well be it from flying schools or airlines. So that's a good sign that more people are reading and writing. I'm gonna leave the pilot talks to them.cause i'm really not that passionate compare with them. There you go Sharman i've said it out loud! Lol.No seriously i really am not. So if you guys really want to continue reading, you can expect a lot of bullish and another bullish post by me from now on.At least i know i will still have 4 kiasu loyal readers who enjoyed eathing thai food with a double D coconut drink,lepas tu tak habis makan. And Foxtrot,can i update your blog for you?Cause you know how much i love writing. The way Clayden does.lol.

Chow people. I shall go to sleep. I can't believe i wasted my precious 15 minutes of beauty sleep for this. I need to ge paid la like this. Naomi Campbell said 'honey, if i don't make 100 grand per day. I couldn't be bothered waking up in the morning'. Toodles!

When Patpong is raining

2010-06-06T21:03:00.004+08:00

This post is way long overdue.I don't really have the mood and inspiration to write at the moment so let's just roll the pictures ok. Yet another Bangkok trip.It was awesome!

Say you'll be there

2010-05-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

"The way to get meaning into your life is to devote yourself loving others,devote yourself to the community around you and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.Once you learn how to die,you learn how to love.Don't cling to things because everything is impermanent" Mitch Albom - Have a little faith.

I am amazed by how fast things can change around us.How people change.How buildings keep rising up out of nowhere.How older are we getting each day.
We imagined how things would be in the future,we planned where we're heading in the future,but sadly none of it will turn out as what we thought it would be.We said to our close friends 'Nothing will come between us,we know each other so well and we will be together forever'.Yes,we are brave enough to use the word forever.Little that we know,that there's no such thing as forever.If there is no forever why would we used it? why is there even such a word at first place?

Because we want to be in that comfort zone where everything will turn out the way we wanted it.We don't want to hear that things will change and you might not get whatever you want.We are all in denial.We couldn't accept the fact that nothing stays the way they are.Our feelings keep changing.Our thoughts keep growing.Our memories will fade.Friendships will vanished.Every step that we take,every people that we meet,every decision that we made,they are not for the eternity.They are merely a transit check.For us to find ourselves.For us to learn about our own self.

So that we know,we human can plan things,w can make promises,we can at least try to make things happen but sometimes it's beyond our control.Not sometimes,all the times.

We wake up every morning going to work,hoping that day would be a better day from yesterday.And somehow in the end of the day,we will still ask ourselves,'why am i doing this again?', ' what do i get from all this?'.If you could have known the outcome,would you change anything and wish you could do things differently?Sadly we will never know what the future holds for us.We human are made to enjoy the company of others.We need the company of others.We need the others to get us along the way whichever way the path is taking us.

When you're in your primary school,you feel like your friends are everything in the world,you cried on your last day of school because you can't accept the fact that you will not see each other again,you promised to them that you will be friends forever.When you're in high school,you could have sworn that your friends are the best thing that has ever happened to you.You plan you future together so that you can be close with each other.You promised that you will be friends forever.You step in the university,your course mate are you saviors since you shared money for your lunch,you stayed up till the morning to finish your assignments,in the end of the course you will say,we will be friends forever.Along the way,you met few people,who might have that same interest,view and perspective in life the way you do.You've grown up together in such a short period of time,or at least that's what you thought,and promised that you will be friends forever.

In the end where are all this forever? Forever will be over before you knew it.

I've learn t to know which one will stay and which one will leave.And i hope this time i am not wrong.I can't afford to make the same mistakes again.I know that because i never had to promise to them that we will be friends forever.because we know we will.

Warm whispers

2010-05-16T22:04:00.001+08:00

Hey ho! Sorry for the long absence.Been quite busy as always.The lamest excuse that i can come up with.Early of the month was quite hectic for me.I did my LOFT and thank God everything went well.This time we did the volcano ash procedure,as well as few other 'crazy' failures.It was a great practice and good exposure for us in case we will experience them in real flying.God forbid of course.After that,i had three days of SEP recurrent which turned out to be so fun i did not want it to end.Probably because the crew in my class was awesome.Haih i miss them already.They were only few pilots in my class,only two FO's and 4 Captains,the rest are all flight attendants.

If you're wondering,SEP is basically a course that all crew i.e pilot and flight attendant need to attend once in every 13 months.There would be an exam,door drill,fire drill and wet drill.Passing mark for the exam is 90% so there's only few mistakes allowed in order to pass depending on how many questions in one set.Door drill would be of course test on how to open,close,arm and disarming the door.I think i already explained about this in one of my posts last year.No need to explain lagi lah ok.

There are few funny occasions during my course this time.One of it was how one of the stewardess mati mati thought i am a steward and only to find out on our second day together that i am actually not.Penat she asked me which batch i'm from,who's my Flight Attendant Examiner (FAE),bila nak naik wide body.Yeah i know muka saya tak layak jadi pilot.Hiks.But honestly i enjoyed the class.I actually felt sad that after this we don't get to meet each other that much.There's just so many of us that the chances of us to bump into each other at flight ops is very slim :( Tiba-tiba rasa nak jadi cabin crew.

Nanti saya sambung tulis.I'm currently reading 'Say you're one of them' by Uwem Akpan.So far i'm loving it!

p/s: dear labu,regarding your question,yes take off and landing is the crucial part especially during bad weather because you have to make the decision in a split second.It's either you wish to land or you go around depending on your minima.The only difference when experiencing bad weather up there is that,we can anticipate since we have the weather radar.So we can make a deviation to the right or to the left to avoid the big clouds.Tho sometimes it is unavoidable like the Clear Air Turbulence where it is not visible.But you can't do that (deviate) while approaching for landing can you? so that's why is it crucial :)

Kamik dan Kitak

2010-04-29T18:49:00.000+08:00

Recently i went to Kuching,right after my ETOPS sim.Funny how i fly there at least two times a month but i've never step foot on that place.And with that,i am proud to say that i finally visited all states in Malaysia! yeay me !

My friend in flying school just became a dad when his wife gave birth to a baby girl on the 25th of April.Considering that he is one of my good friend back in flying school,i decided to pay a short visit.Not like i got better things to do at home anyway.

Who said i cannot handle baby? see baby is very happy you know.hahaha

Taking it slow

2010-04-18T19:03:00.000+08:00

What do people mean when they say 'please keep in touch'? I seriously don't get it when people say that.Do they mean that we should contact each other once a day,once a week,once a month or once a year.Or was it just a symbol of formality but the truth is it means 'i don't really want to hear from you cause you're not that important in my life anyway'.

Come on,honestly how many of you,when you said 'Oh we should keep in touch' and you really mean it? I'm pretty sure at the back of your head you're just saying that because it's the right thing to say! I'm pretty much an honest person.Can ask Sharman since he said i can be a little too honest sometimes.Say,when i meet new people and if i thought that the that person is a great company i definitely would say 'We should do this again etc etc' but if im not interested in you,i couldn't even be bothered to say 'We should keep in touch or it's really nice to meet you' because i know that i do no want to keep in touch with you and there's nothing nice about meeting you honestly!

I may sound like a jerk but my whole point is please do not say something if you do not mean it! There's nothing wrong with just keeping your mouth shut and ended an outing with i don't know,Goodbye perhaps?
And when you say to someone 'keep in touch',please be a little bit specific.Tell the person HOW you want to keep in touch,should i call you? or you'll call me or any other possible communication cause seriously there's nothing fun about guessing/waiting who should have call or text who first.

I have ANOTHER base checks next month.Gessh give me a break la.Now all of us need to do base check once in every three months instead of every six month.I have ETOPS end of this month and SEP recurrent for three days next month which mean another humiliation in the swimming pool.How many times la i have to jump in the swimming pool people,you know how bloody heavy it is to swim with your uniform.But i enjoy it tho especially when we join together with the crew,and no they do not swim with their red skirt.Stop fantasizing.

I may have to cycle to the airport for the next whole month to save on the car petrol since i TER-overspend on unnecessary items this month.I wouldn't say unnecessary la since i still gonna get em' eventually,it's just that i can't wait any longer.Temptation.Get what i mean?and when you have friends like Shamu and Foxtrot with you all the time,they practically will just say 'Yeah you really should get it! it'll make you happy!'
Terima Kasih.

I flew with this one Captain whom i admire and respect the most in my company,the same to his brother who is also a Captain in the same company.I flew with both of them during my line training phase and somehow i got to fly with one of them again.They are so smart and nice that i don't understand why can't all the other Captains be more like them.They are very young in their 30's but they don't have the attitude of 'I'm a Captain so i know everything' like some of the other people do.I'm not saying that all of them are like that.As a matter of fact most of Captains that i flew with are awesome.It's just that one or two of them that i don't particularly like.You know when you don't like certain people just because you simply don't.I don't know how explain.It's the same thing in real life where we can't possibly like everyone hence we can't expect everyone to like us either.

Sometimes i always complained about how my work is so stressful,i am exhausted and so on.It got me thinking,what makes me so stress out about my job? isn't this what i always wanted? So i came down to the conclusion that people that i work with or in general our environment play an important role in whether we enjoying our job or not.Same goes to other field.I noticed that when i flew with great Captains,it doesn't feel like a job to me,i don't even care if the aircraft is delayed or if i don't get to go home earlier,because i am enjoying it! The whole environment in cockpit is just fun.At the end of the day,i can smile while walking back to the office or to my car.There are times when i thought that i could no longer do this.But i know,this is the best thing that has ever happened in my life so far.Somehow i will have to find a way or determination to continue doing what i do.

I personally think that,we don't really need to have that much of a passion to be good at what we're doing because you see,sometimes people can be crazy about F1 cars but that doesn't mean that they can be a good F1 drivers no matter how passionate they are about it.

I'm too far off from my story.So i flew with the Captain,i always enjoyed talking to him because i got to learn a lot from him in every aspects from work to life to financial,you name it.We did the Macau sector if i am not mistaken so there was plenty of chit chatting time while we're on the cruise.

I asked him,how did he end up becoming a pilot when he had a degree in biology or something,and he said ' i really have no idea! hahahahaa you see that time it was hard for me to get a job and i was flipping through the newspaper when i saw the advert on MAS cadetship,so i decided to try and voila here i am now.' 'I never wish to become a pilot when i was a kid like most of you guys do,but eventually i managed to like the job and since i got it,i better be the best that i can be,and hey the pay is good!'

So you see,some people are meant to be good at something that they doesn't like at first,and as the time goes by,we will eventually find out the reason why and learn to enjoy it.And if you still not happy,then only it's time that you move on with something else.

I have this one question that i like to ask people,it's rather stupid but i love to see how people perceive things in life because honestly i am still searching the right answer,well maybe some of you would like to share you thoughts on it? Here's the question 'Which is worse,not getting what you wish for or getting it but finding out it fell short off?'

I asked the Captain that question he told me 'Well it can be a little bit of both,it's like you have a coin with two sides isn't it? No matter which side you're getting,in the end you still have the coin!'
I don't quite agree with the answer but it's a good way of looking at it.

My current obsession is the whole album of Echo.Her songs are all bloody fantastic!

First i need a hero,i got a mirror

Looking inside of my soul

If i need a hero,i got my mirror

And i go on with the show

One day you won't be here

2010-04-09T12:36:00.000+08:00

Been a lil bit busy lately.As you can see on my previous post,Miss Sierra was on my flight that day.It was a lil bit of nerve wrecking because she's the first person/best friend that actually see me flying for real.Luckily my landing wasn't that hard but was not the best either.Funny how before when i was in flying school,we used to say that one day we'll be in the same flight together and now few years later it became a reality.Who would've thought back then right? And maybe insyaAllah one day we will fly together as Captain and co-pilot.

I came across a blog,and one post caught my attention.It was written as a tribute/memory for his friend who died in a car accident.It was so heart-wrenching and emotionally distraught and i can't help but wonder,wouldn't it be nice if he who passed away would get to hear or read what his friends wrote for him? Imagine how he would've felt if only he knew that he got so much love from his friends,that his friends misses him so much,he might after all had the most perfect life that he could have had with the thoughts that his friends are there for him.Sadly,he couldn't get to hear all that for he is gone.And his friends who are still alive,could only wish that they get to tell him how important he was to them.We humans tend to forget or appreciate what's in front of us.Only when it's gone that we realize what we have lost.In the end,it didn't matter anyway because it wouldn't change anything.So,regrets comes not for something we did,but for something we didn't do when we could've have the chance to do it.

Your honor

2010-04-01T20:33:00.003+08:00

Guess who's on board my flight today? And this is my 100th post people and still counting!

Many the miles

2010-03-30T23:17:00.001+08:00

Yesterday,i finally got to meet Hummingbird,another blogger,one of only few blog that i actually enjoy reading after Kak Leen's.Had a great dinner at KLCC with Mon,Foxtrot and herself.And no,you don't look like a prostitute from china,you're very much of a lenglui! Amazing isn't it how we get to meet another interesting people through the internet and funny how we are all connected in a way.Bless the internet!

I'm definitely not going to talk about flying,three entries of aircraft pictures in a row can spare me of pilot talks for at least another 2 months.It's already the end of march.Felt like just yesterday that i went to Singapore to celebrate the new year.Now we're already entering the fourth month of the year.I feel like i haven't achieved anything significant yet so far.Apart from overspending on ridiculous stuff,yeah i've achieved nothing yet.

I seriously got no idea what to talk about.I guess i'm all inspired to write only when i'm in distress and emotional.

By the way, i have a son.He's 8 years old and he's from Ternate,Maluku Island,Indonesia.His name is Ucuk Hamjai but i call him Robert Pattinson.Suka hati.Such a cute boy.Ok i sounded like a pedophile.No,i did not get someone pregnant in a middle of nowhere and only to find out 8 years later.worldvision.com.my for futher infromation.Letih nak explain.

Robert Pattinson

I'll write again soon.Im gonna watch my one tree hill.cheers :)

Breakaway

2010-03-24T17:13:00.001+08:00

Before i get to the pictures,i just wanna wish one of my besties Shamu a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY! *clap clap* everyone! You can go here and wish him as well.I promise we'll make it up for the celebration.Next month hopefully! skinny dipping jom! hahah as if berani.

Clarity

2010-03-21T18:39:00.000+08:00

Morningside

2010-03-19T21:38:00.001+08:00

p/s: sorry for the ever low quality of pictures.I seriously need to invest in a good camera.Any expertise care to share your thoughts on which brand would be the best? I'm a noob when it comes to gadgets.

Kill the lights

2010-03-14T22:45:00.000+08:00

I am full of determination and thoughts at the moment.I feel like there's so many things to accomplished in such a short time.After doing some major thinking,i have come to a conclusion that i should not fret much about something that i know is not worth thinking.Especially when it comes to relation with another human being.I am not perfect and i am not a doormat either.I need to start thinking about what makes me happy not about what makes you happy.If it means that i'm going to do stuff on my own,fine by me,i've been doing that for the rest of my life.I certainly don't need a pack of people behind my back just to make my life meaningful or interesting.

Foxtrot was right,we don't actually need too many good friends,buat pening kepala ada ramai ramai.
Recently there's more than three people noticed that i lose weight.I thought all this while that i looked exactly the same!
I am blessed with high metabolism rate (sila jealous) but i think it got something to do with those track mill running and body pump classes.I can't help it but i just love running.Need to put on some weight,somehow.Dah macam anorexia dah tengok.

I was supposed to fly today but they changed to standby.Yeay.Tomorrow also standby and followed by three days off.Yeay again! Better make full use it.

Hummingbird,we gonna make the trip happen ok! you jangan tak fit pulak! hahahahh

That's about it for the time being.I'll write again soon! take care guys!

Somersault

2010-03-04T22:15:00.000+08:00

To those who commented on my previous post,i really appreciate your concern and well wishes. *terharu*
But i choose not to dwell much into that matter.I guess it was just a phase.But it might be a longer one this time.
Whatever it is,i just need to face it,embrace and deal with it on my own circumstances.I've been doing it alone for my entire life and i believe i can handle it again this time.

Sorry if the vibe of this post is a bit gloomy and dreary.I can't be happy,excited and kecoh 24/7 can i?
I just completed my base check.One item settled.Thank God for a good partner and nice examiner.I have ETOPS sim session next month.I really don't want to think about it now.I just need a sec to breath.And another slide raft drill for ETOPS meaning another opportunity to humiliate my own self in the swimming pool.

Remember i told you about this one particular flight that i was looking forward to,well it didn't happen.Last minute roster changes.It got nothing to do with special route or anything.Never mind about it.I'll figure something out to make it possible,somehow.And i'm in serious consideration of making a drastic change in my career path.Not quitting my job in case you're wondering.What else i could possibly do other than this right? Unless i have a 1 million cash in saving and 2.5 million EPF.But i have to think whether it will do me any good or more harm.

You know what they say about the law of attraction and stuff ( Thanks Azhan for reminding me of that),i do believe in it in a way.You know the part of having faith in what you want in life,creating a positive vibe around you and things will work out the way you wanted it.Yeah,sometimes it does work and it is a matter of time when it will.But now my question is,does this whole concept apply to wanting another human heart? Can we wait,wish and have faith that we will definitely get what we wanted? Yes,we can make the 110% effort,but the truth is if it were never meant to be,it will never be.We can't have everything.

Have you ever tell yourself when you fall hard and somehow managed to get back that you will never ever be the person that you used to be and you will never put yourself in that situation again,but instead you did exactly the same mistakes.Why can't we learn from the past? Tho you keep telling yourself 'Don't do this to yourself ! ' Because we are human.We are not robots.Human don't come with manuals and we can't program stuff..Heck if we did,life would be easier.Oh,how to erase your memory : "Knock your head 3 times" How not to stress yourself out : "Slap your face continuously for 2 minutes". If only it's that simple.

I have this syndrome of making the same exact mistakes only when it comes to affairs of the heart.But not to other aspect of my life.I am a very egoistic person i have to admit that.I can be self-righteous and ignorant and whole list of other things.But i became so vulnerable when a person that i thought was different came into my life and unintentionally messed the whole thing up all over again.Quote Ms. Lewis "But all these days they feel like they're the same,just different faces,different names,get me out of here" Seriously,get me out of here.I made myself sound like the most disturbed,sad and pathetic guy on earth.Maybe i am,i don't know.

But in the end,i know that i will manage to put myself back together.It has happened before.Ironically towards the end,i will say the same thing ,'never ever make the same mistake again.' But that is the first thing i will do.

I need to find a new purpose in life.Something that will make me feel alive again.I know i will eventually find it.
I can't afford to lose myself.I am only getting older not younger.

p/s: Hummingbird,your voice sexy la dalam phone,i want to follow you to court next time can? Mon tak boleh sibuk!

Echo

2010-02-24T21:21:00.000+08:00

Saya rasa sangat sedih dan kecewa sekarang.The heart has reasons that reason does not understand.

Midnight coward

2010-02-18T23:32:00.002+08:00

Hey,how are you all people doing? to all my beautiful chinese friends,HAPPY NEW YEAR! Too bad none of you guys are married,if not i ask for angpow already.

Anyway,i was working both on the eve and chinese new year day itself,both day to Bali.The view of fireworks from FL380 was just fantastic.Tho they look more like a 'pop-pop' version of fireworks from up there.

Just after airborne from Kota Kinabalu

Again there's so many stuff to write.

Where to start.I went for a short trip on my first few days off of the month.Significant event was i couldn't get phone connection at the place i went to since i recently changed my pre-paid plan to post paid plan so they didn't activate my roaming services.I thought it's going to be automcatically activated but i was wrong,it works only for pre-paid.If i knew earlier i should've stick to the plan.Anyway,the problem did distracted me for a few hours after touch down.I was all moody because my phone is everything! Well the only reason was i was afraid that the office might call me or something tho i know it was my days off.Pathetic.After thinking through,i thought this might do me good after all,at least i can forget about work and other stuff and focus on relaxing and shopping!

On my recent days off,i did another interesting activity.Still waiting for the picture from abang jebot.Foxtrot told me Abang Kuda's friend look like abang jebot,whoever he is,but yeah so we call him abang jebot but his real name is Nabil.But he doesn't know we call him abang jebot.Ok merapu dah.But managed to take few pics from the phone.Here's the teaser.Wah teaser!

Moose: Have you seen Avatar? This place look just like it isnt it?

Me: Uh huhhh angguk kepala (walhal kau tak pernah tengok lagi!)

What else..

Meet my new love,Amber (my Dad gave the name don't blame me).Ben was a bit jealous but they get on very well after that.

Oh congrats to Shamu for getting on line finally! (vacation soon! woot woot!) i really am happy for him and not forgetting Abang Nazri who finished his single engine phase! so proud of you guys.

Hari tu ada captain tanya," So, dah kahwin?"
Terus terlanggar tiang, "Hoish Capt! saya baru ___ tahun lah!"
"Mana la tahu budak sekarang kan kahwin awal awal"
"tapi saya bukan budak budak sekarang" (boleh jawab macam tu? hahaha)

Haihh selalu orang tanya baru habis sekolah ke,ni dah kene tanya dah kahwin ke belum,tunggu Kak Saloma kahwin baru saya fikir.

I'm looking forward for this one particular flight end of this month,i'm so excited about it.

Another brilliant song by her.lyrically fantastic.

Talking to a brick wall

2010-02-04T17:11:00.000+08:00

I went to this second hand book shop in Mont Kiara,it was a long story how i get to know this place but anyway, i went there and surprisingly the owner of the place still remember my name! the last time i went there was 2 months ago.I know it's not a big deal,but for me it is.I think it was because when the first time i bought books from him,he recommended all sort of books to me but to his surprise i already read most of them.So he said that,he's really happy that he get to meet someone who actually read all this sort of books.I don't mean to brag but honestly there's not many people out there who are geeks like us.Yes i am a geek i admit that.

So we 'book people' have this sort of connection where we can talk almost about everything since we read the same stuff,we obviously have the same way of thinking.Ok itu saja nak cerita.Im so excited ni because i bought plenty of books from the place just now.

What else? Hmmm i am busy as always,even though that i'm not,i pretend that i am busy or tell myself 'Yes,you're busy' so that i don't feel so much of a loser with no interesting outside life other than working.Yes the fact is my life can be so pathetic at certain points.I really don't want to bore you guys about flying talk.

Oh im starting to dislike the whole idea of having a facebook account,AGAIN. If i'm going to delete my account again this time,i think they will probably just shut me off eternally because i'm pretty sure i'm in the top ten list of people who like to bukak tutup account.We'll see.I noticed i'm like this whenever i don't want to know about any updates from certain people when actually i do want to know,it's just that i'm afraid that it'll hurt me.Ok tak faham.And i also bump into my brothers profile yang lebih handsome dari saya,yang mempunyai girlfriend yang cantik dan kawan kawan yang cool.Ya,sila tembak diri sendiri sekarang.
To prove that i am sooo uncool,i haven't watch Avatar.Boo me people.

Other than that,everything is ok i guess.

'There are those among us who are blessed with the power to save what is loved by another,but powerless to use this blessing for love themselves'.
Current obsession.

Don't say anything

2010-01-22T00:22:00.002+08:00

Just got back from body combat class.It was awesome.I've been really busy lately.Flew 4 days straight in a row.Not complaining,as a matter of fact i enjoyed it.Went to a lot of new different routes,for me at least,Pekan Baru,Phuket and Surabaya.Pekan Baru was the most challenging one after Kota Bharu.Naaa i think it's more challenging than Kota Bharu.Runway width was just 30m,that's only half of the one in KLIA,thus make it a captain sector where co pilots are not allowed to land there.Phuket approach was crazy either,due to the offset VOR.In bound heading is 079 degree but the runway track is 085 degree.So once you're visual you have to disengage the autopilot and fly manually.The difference is big,even scarier when flying at night.Surabaya was just huge and busy.Found out that it's not a 24 hours airport tho,so need to depart before they close down.Our first indonesian maid was from there and i miss her so much terribly.I thought of her when i landed there and hoping that she might be in my flight.Slim chances i know but..haihh.She was like my second mother to me where i share almost everything with her.We're so close even my youngest sister call her Mak.I would do anything just to meet her again,and i have no idea where to find her.I really hope she's fine.

Sorry to bore you guys with the details.Im just writing whatever that flows inside my head.I met two of my blog readers in a week time.Not too bad.Thanks you guys,You know who you are.Remember i told you that i wanted to watch list of movies in my previous post,well i only managed to watch one.Grammatically is it we watch movies or we see movies? Anyway,it was Heiran,an Iranian movie,there was only 3 people inside the cinema including me which makes it pretty awesome.I hate crowded places.But it was astoundingly cold.Luckily it was a 'wear a long sleeve and a pants day'.Oh,the movie is not that bad.I am a sucker for foreign language movies.I love em'.

Last month i finished reading this book,im sure you'll heard of it 'Anne Frank:The diary of a young girl'.There's so many version of it,i happened to bought the latest edition one.It brought tears to my eyes after finishing reading it.Just a quick synopsis,it was a memoir or to be exact a diary written by this young girl Anne Frank when her family and few family friends was in hiding during the war against the Jews.It was so vivid that you imagine every single thing that she wrote.The environment,the building,everything as if you're part of them.To know that this is actually a true story,where it used to happened exactly the way she wrote,was just disturbing,and the ending was nothing that i imagined how it'll turned out to be.I knew before i read it that of course the ending would be bad,but while reading it i was hoping that please let them be fine,let them live a better life after the war.I am not gonna spoil it here,you can read it if you even bother to know or you can just google it.

Let see,what else.I made few contact with long lost friend.Well they are not lost,they're there,just that everybody was busy doing their own thing,that sometimes we tend to forget how much fun we used to had when we were friends and well when we were not 'busy'.I am the type where if there's an understanding among me and my friends,i'm gonna look back and think whether the friendship is worth saving after all.Was he/she there during my hardest time,or was he/she just another 'friends with benefits'? If they were part of me growing and be the person that i am today,tho it was one year ago that we last spoke to each other,i'm willingly will all my heart put down my ego,grab the phone and dial the number.

Because you see,good friends don't come often Sure,things will never be the same like how it used to be,even the action that you took was undeniably foolish and dopey,but you're worth remembering because you was there and some people was just a parasite that'll suck you dry and can't wait to see you fall because they were intimidated by you success.We are all not perfect,sure you might think that 'oh,he/she got everything,his/her life is just perfect,why can't i be more like him/she?' But what's behind all those smile and happy life that he/she portrayed? You wouldn't know,would you?

What i can say is,count your blessings,if we're so perfect,we could've be an angel or Prophet for that matter.Learn to accept the flaws.Think of the other unprivileged people who wish and willing to do anything to be in your position.So open up your eyes and choose carefully.
Back to the long lost friend,it was really good just to catch up and im really glad that we are all the same person that how we used to be.Your 1000 friends on Facebook will not be there,when you hit rock bottom,only few will offer their shoulder to lean on.So think before you add some random people! Tiba-tiba!

Did i tell you how much i hate standby? Yeah,i hate standby.

Ouh the other day i went to Kota Bharu.It was nice considering that some of the instructor still remember me.And it feels good to hear all those Apac callsign again.Walaupon ada orang tu janji nak lambai tapi instead ada dekat rumah tidur! Nasib Don ada kan?

Dahla that's all for the time being.I need to get my 'Glee' dose.That show is awesome! Have a great day ahead peeps.

p/s: What's with bragging of losing someone's virginity on Facebook status? I didn't know it's considered cool to lose one.Should i say mmm GOON ON YA! or TOO BAD? Newsflash,we just don't care on how cheap you make yourself look!

Listening to this song will always makes me happy and smile :) Any of John Mayer song actually.Anyone who can play this song in front of me, i'll be you slave for a week.Oklah belanja makan.How's that?

Extraordinary Day

2010-01-12T11:26:00.006+08:00

Oh well it's 2010 already.As you can see,i went to Singapore for the new year celebration.It was a last minute thing again.I drove there with Foxtrot.Miss Sierra was in Paris celebrating there.Darn, i wish i could join her but then work obligation.

Singapore was fun.Everything was just spontaneous,not knowing where to go,where to sleep but we survived the city!Seriously i had fun.It's just feel so good to be out of town after all the stress.Yes,2009 was my stressful year.Everything was just hard.One thing after another.But i am thankful to have this people around me who make it less painful and dreadful.

I actually wrote the first two paragraph about a week ago,but there's always something that will stop me from continue writing,it's either someone suddenly decided to show up at my doorstep or i just ran out of idea what to write about.It's already 12th of the month! where are all the rest of January days gone?!
Last week was fun.I met all my favourite peeps at the same place same time.Miss Sierra is back from her trip.Abang Nazri and Don came back to KL for the weekend.We had a great outing.

No foto no foto!

Don cuba memeber penjelasan bahawa dia tidak bersalah member nasihat palsu kepada junior.Hahahaah

Yesterday i went to Kolkatta for the first time.It was by far one of the best flight i ever did.Merely because the Captain and the rest of the crew was fun.If we're talking about the route it self,i got nothing much to complain since it was not that bad compare with the stories that i've heard.Because i know,kalau crew kene buat sector sector ke arah 'that' region ,dhaka,trichi etc masing masing geleng kepala.Tanyalah mana mana crew airlines lain pon.Pax untuk sector macam ni sangat special yer.Hahahaha kesian dekat attendants sebenarnya,kita pilot at least duduk dalam cockpit jela dont have to deal much with them.

I give example la,contoh kejadian dalam route route macam ni.One time,i think while disembarking,one of the pax decided to use the lavatory,and the captain was standing beside it.Next thing the captain realized,yellow bubble-ish water start coming out from the bottom of the lavatory.That guy actually peed on the door wall! So when he came out,the captain asked did he peed on the door,why didn't he peed inside the bowl!? He just looked with puzzled face and walk off.It was that bad and there's a suggestion that maybe we should place a placard inside inside the lavatory on how to use the bowl.
The other time,one pax shit in his pants on board! Imagine the smell in the entire cabin.Kalau sector pendek takper,ini berejam! So macam itulah contoh kejadian kejadian yang berlaku.

But in my flight yesterday,nothing out of ordinary happened.I think because most of them was tourist so they certainly hold a different attitude and mentality compare with the 'norm' local people there.Except the pungent 'au natural' smell is something that we can't run off laa.Hahahaha.When we came in for the approach,i was so stunned and astonished to see how congested,full and crowded the city look.Houses in every corner of the place.It's just madness.And to think that this is only one city alone,imagine the whole India? Just crazy and fantastic.I always wanted to visit there and i hope i'll get the chance someday.Oh,radio call diaorg dah serupa macam rapping dah dengar,laju nak mampus.Captain pulak tak habis habis nyanyi lagu kala kala kutta kutta eyyy ooo eyyyy,Memang dok gelak jelah dalam cockpit tu.But i really like them lot,they're very nice and polite.

Once we landed,while disembraking,one pax came and said 'My daughter enjoyed this flight very much she would like to visit the cockpit if you don't mind'.So captain pon bagilah masuk.Budak perempuan ni i think around the age of 5 came in,stared at me and then asked the captain,gaya macam supervisor ni,'Who flew the aircraft?' Captain pointed at me and said 'He did'. She stared again and asked the captain,'And what did you do?' Captain said,'I did nothing,i just slept the whole flight'jokingly. She said,'Then why do you sit there,you can sit at the back and sleep' Amikkkkk!

Penang

Langkawi

Oh dulu saya pernah buat flight Clark (Manila),masa cruising i went out from the cockpit,punya la terkejut tengok the whole cabin macam tengah pesta.People running up and down,standing,tepuk tepuk tangan,i asked the SFA,what happened? meriah sangat ni.SFA jawab,ala biasalah judi,tengok tu,duit berkepuk kepuk.Kalau flight Macau pon lebih kurang,when we asked they answered,'warm up,warm up!'
Satu time borak dengan this passenger,Malaysian but work at one of the casino in Macau,i asked him,'Diaorang selalu judi berapa ribu?' Dia gelak,'Ribu? mereka itu judi aaaaa boleh beli ini kapal you tauu kaaa!'

Aviation world is very interesting actually,You get to meet all different kind of people,i am loving this new experience and with a set of fun crew,it just made the flight more enjoyable.Flying is supposed to be fun,but i don't understand why certain people really trying to make it hard for them and eventually for us.When you stresses out,your performance drop,and when the ambiance of your work is positive,eventually you'll be positive and looking forward to go to work everyday.It is sad to see that some people do not appreciate this concept but instead making life harder for everyone.Sorry ter emo,because i just cannot la flying with someone yang terlalu serious,everything doesn't seem right,make me feel like 'God bila la nak land ni.'
I'm sure some of you people in the aviation felt the same way be it in flying school or airlines.I guess we just have to live with it la.

By the way,what's up with all this burning churches and everything? Seriously,i am embarassed to call myself a Malaysian.To even think that this is happening in the year of 2010?! My goodness,are you kidding me? Those days,in the 50's or 60's,there is no need of this 1Malaysia thing.Everyone accept each other despite the difference of skin color,language and culture.Now,they're making it as if we're at each others throat when the fact is it's nothing like that! It's only because of this few stupid,pudden head that gave a false image to the society and make everything seems worst.Seriously how would you feel if they burn the mosque,marah kan? Riot sana sini.So samalah.Don't do something that you don't want others to do to you.This concept also applies in our daily life.And i can't stand how ignorant someone can be by pulling down the window,and throw rubbish outside from the car? Dude,seriously? kau sekolah ker tak sekolah? Sedih sebenarnya ada manusia macam ni.Lepas tu bukan main lagi sticker unsur unsur islam penuh dekat cermin.Tapi konsep nya tak apply? Disgrace.

Anyway,siapa dah tengok Sherlock Holmes? I need to catch up with movies ni.Avatar belum tengok,Cirque du freak ( i read the book since i was tweleve),Did you hear about the morgans,Heiran (a persian movie) and
3 idiots ( Hindi movie),apparently it's the biggest hype in India at the moment.

p/s:Spaghetti,Nasi briyani dengan Nasi Lemak on board flight saya sedap lah.Nanti try ok semua? Tak mahal pon.Hahahha promote company sikit! I seriously need to invest on a new camera.Tapi tak nak yang gedabak tu,susah nak bawak.hmmmm

Face up in the right town

2010-01-02T14:08:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year!

I suggest that if you wanna watch this video,turn your volume down or switch it off completely.
The best fireworks i've ever seen in my life.

Push your head towards the air

2009-12-31T01:08:00.000+08:00

This will be a quick one.Just came back from flight tapi tetap gigih menulis ni.It's the last day of 2009!
I am not going to list down my resolutions like how i used to last year.I believe that we should make ours every single day,not once a year.I am very exhausted but yet very excited with the upcoming trip.I'll be back after new year.In the meantime,enjoy and take care of yourself.Happy New Year peeps! May God will bless us with happiness and good health in this another new beginning.InsyaAllah.See ya soon!

How lucky we are

2009-12-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

You guys need to watch Serendipity and My Sister's Keeper.It's bloody awesome,for sensitive creatures like me at least.You see i was supposed to fly 3 days,for the past 3 days but they changed to standby.If anything that i hate most in my roster is standby.The agony of waiting and not knowing whether you will get call up or not is just arghh i dont know what to say.Everytime the phone rings,i'll be like 'Damn it!' I am scared of my phone right now.I hate phones.Everything that rings.Right shamu? Oh let me introduce my friend Sharman but i call him Shamu.You guys can call him Shamu as well.We went to flying school together and work in the same company.He just got a new car and it's smells good.I like the leather smell.You can visit his blog to know more about him.At the right corner.Yeah that's it.He's a good writer.Oh well im no way near as good as him.Shamu is also very tall and single.So girls go check him out.Ok Im officially dead
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Oh dear i'm supposed to attend this annual dinner alumni thing for my flying school but i have to work on that day.Not like i really wanna attend it,i just needed the get away,and you people know how much i love Kota Bharu.Don't ask me why.Foxtrot will be there for his graduation.Congratulations! I know you can't wait to meet all the people,exciting isn't it?! Hahahahahah.Ok im so dead again.

Miss Sierra will be away for quite some time.I would do anything to join her but again work.Bugger!
I have no idea why i wrote all this crap at first place.Tahniah kepada anda yang membaca! Good night peeps i'll be back with less crappier post.Hopefully ;P Till then.

Space they cannot touch

2009-12-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

I was cleaning up my books and my collection of cds just now.It brought me back to the days when i was in Australia cause i bought most of my cd's there.They were my obession back then.I remember kept playing the same cd's back to back.They were my companion on the way to school,while waiting for class,jogging,etc.

Among all the collection,my biggest obsession was back then,Guy Sebastian and Australian Idol.It wasn't only for me but for my whole family from my dad to my youngest sister.Guy Sebastian was the first Australian Idol and we were rooting for him like crazy towards the end of the show after we found out that his dad was actually from Klang.Well he used to live there until 7 years old and the only thing that he can remember was stray dogs and roti canai.

Anyway,Australian Idol show was the biggest hype at that time.We're so into it,we even taped every single show up until the finale.My favourite contestant was Cosima only because she sang one of Delta Goodrem's song during the wild card show and i was her biggest fan ever since.My mum's favourite was Levi and we named our first cat Levi.We named one of Levi's 'son' Shannon.Shannon was the runner up for the first season.See,told ya we're obsessed with the show.Recently i was shocked to find out that Levi was found dead after falling from his hotel balcony.

Garfield and Shannon when they were young

Levi

Just now when i listened back to the the old songs,i feel young! ekeleh. No la,i feel the exact feeling that i used to feel la.The power of musics.Awesome.

p/s: sorry entry sangat merapu

Weapon of choice

2009-12-09T10:59:00.001+08:00

I am soo bloody tired.4 days straight in a row flying,i swear even when sleeping i dreamt about giving take off briefing,what the!? Now 3 days off.woot woot! Parents supposed to come back tomorrow.I am excited.Yesterday was my first time doing Sandakan sector.So i get all excited when we overfly Mount Kinabalu.Well it's more to left side of the route la by clearly visible.It was sunset somemore so the view was just breathtaking.Makes me wonder how does the atmosphere,wind,environment feels like at such a high level mountain.I always wanted to climb the Mt. Kinabalu and i will one day!

Read the news regarding the KB Mall incident.My was it scary or what? It's just so sad to hear we lost innocent souls in such unpredictable and terror way.And it's a proven fact that we can actually die anytime,anywhere without knowing it.So be safe out there people!

The other day i was at the gas station on the way to work isi minyak la kan.There's this car behind my car waiting for me to finish.As i lift the nozzle and try to fill up minyak tak keluar.Dan dan la kan.So i give signal to the car behind to wait for a while and the pump attendant came to fix the problem.The car behind pon satu tetap nak isi the same pump padahal the other pumps kosong.And then she honk and give a signal for me to come to her car.Okayyyy...So this mak cik pon start asking la 'Awak ni training apa? (I'm with my uniform la obviously) Then she saw my wing with the airlines name , and she asked again 'Pilot ker?'
I just smiled.Then she goes 'oh my God mudanya how old are you?' I asked her to guess and she said 'Macam 18 tahun jer' ( A.Nazri sila jealous sekarang! hahaha) After that she goes all chatty yada yada asking me where i live and all,sangat busybody.I found it rather amusing how people can be so blunt with a total stranger and the 'Oh my God you look so young' issues is getting lame.

Every single day,every different crew,the first thing that they do when they look at me,they will look at my ID pass.If they can't see my birthday,they will ask me the same question all over again.One time this really funny SFA (Senior Flight Attendant) asked me,'You dulu mesti kerja McD kan?' Seriously kerja McD?! Then she stares at me and said,'Jom lah nanti datang rumah i?' Then i laughed and told her 'Hahahaha nak buat apa? tolong jaga anak you?' She said "Hish buat apa jaga anak i,you la jadi anak ikan i!"

*ternganga*

p/s: Do you know that A320 requires 200KG of fuel for taxi alone.Imagine how much fuel a 747 needs and how that amount of fuel is enough to support you car fuel for a long period of time.Of course they type of fuel is different la.Just the quantity wise.

Steal me

2009-12-01T23:38:00.001+08:00

Just now went to Siem Reap and Langkawi.One guy proposed to his girlfriend on board by making an anouncement.Awwwww,I thought that is kinda romantic.I wish i could i visit LIMA,darn,so many type of aircraft in one place.Haihh..dapat tengok dari cockpit jerla.

There's so many stuff to write but i do not know where to begin.Parents are away for hajj.This is the first time that they left us siblings.The situation is kinda awkward since i am used to having them around.Even though i am not the eldest,i felt that i have so many responsibilities,to take control and manage everything.With working and stuff,it does not make things easier.

You know when you're going through a hard time,but when you think of your family back at home,you feel like 'it's alright i can do this'.Never mind if you don't talk to them about what's happening in your world,but their presence is just enough for you to feel like everything will be ok not matter how hard things are.

It's true when people say that absence make you heart grows fonder.It's only when people are gone that you feel appreciative and wish that you could have done things differently.Like in this situation,my parents are away for a certain period of times and they will be back soon insyaAllah.It got me thinking,what about those people out there whose parents are gone forever?Or at least if they already lost one of them.

My heart goes out to this people and i am truly amazed and respect on how they managed to survive each and every single day alone.It made you realize how lucky you are compare with others.Money and wealth can't buy happiness.

p/s: I wish i could leave work and everything at this very moment and go travelling.Letih teramat.Alien culik saya!

A lack of armor

2009-11-25T18:32:00.000+08:00

I will be back people.Pray that everything will go well.Thank you for keep on coming even though there's no update whatsoever.You guys are the best.Take care!

Possessionless

2009-11-09T23:41:00.004+08:00

I am gonna have to stop writing for a while.For quite some time.So yeah,stay safe people.

'At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home.Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls. And sometimes -- all you need is one.'

-Peyton Sawyer Scott-

Time wont let me go

2009-11-05T00:09:00.004+08:00

Yesterday one of my good friend in flying school Nizam or better known as Nije texted me.He was one batch my junior and a MAS cadet.We used to be good friends since we share the same instructor and im the only one in my batch who got this captain as an instructor.He was known as one of the most furious instructor in my school.The sight of your call sign together with his on the sortie board is enough to make your stomach hurt.

So we always sit,discuss and study together.He's older than me and one of the nicest person i've ever met.The type that wont get a fit and swear easily.Come to think of it he never swears! When he texted me last night,he reminded me of something that i used to do.I told him that im going to do KBR sector today and he replied 'Wow,i still remember you used to wait at the apron waiting for the airbus to land and take off,now you're flying it.'
So it got me thinking,yeah i used to do that every single morning.I would come early for that.Last time the apron is connected together with the main building so it's easier for us to move around.I dont think that the students can do that now right?

It also reminded me how i would meet Miss Sierra everytime she landed there in KBR when she was flying the A320.She used to give me the strength and courage to finish the course.
It only felt like yesterday when all this started.I certainly miss those days and i miss all the nice people that helped me go through everything.

One time,i flew navigation with Nije,It was his sortie and he flew the Piper 28 for his CPL stages but i flew the DA-40.Since i have rating on both aircraft and it's been while since i flew the Piper i decided to go for mutual with him.The thing about piper is,the aircraft is so freaking old,with basic navigation instruments,and it smell bad.Like vomit-ish bad.But i wanted to fly her again before i graduated so that's why i followed Nije.
It was a 2 hours and 30 minutes trip and the route includes Tanah Merah, Kuala Krai,Gua Musang,Kuala Relai,Tasik Kenyir Terengganu airfield,Kg Marang,Perhentian,Kg.Raja,Tok Bali,Bachok and back to Kota Bharu.Something like that la.Being an old school aircraft we need to use the traditional maps and solely depends on it and the VOR.

After Kuala Krai enroute to Gua Musang,the visibility started reducing and patches of clouds everywhere.The fact that there's not much of prominent features along the route except hills and hills everywhere does not help the situation.But we still decided to proceed.And then we got lost.Hahahah.Ok it's not funny.I saw that Nije started having doubt with the track that we following.I was panicking inside too actually but i tried to hid it.
So i told him ' Relax relax kita pergi terus jer'. Walhal i also have no idea where the hell are we! Dah la piper,with the smell and all, i was having a major headache and could throw up anytime.But suddenly,we saw a railway track and i know it will always lead to Guan Musang and voila! It's there! It was a great experience and i didn't flew the piper ever since then! Because with the DA-40 we have GARMIN 1000 so there is no need of the map actually,even in the bad weather we can just follow the GPS.

Nije did the landing at WMKN 22.

When i landed in KBR just now,it was kinda an emotional ride,the sight of Abang Nazri there waiting with his friends,just make me so happy.I appreciate and touched by the presence and all the kind words.Don't worry,your time will come and i am so proud of what you've achieved so far.It will only get better :)

I started watching One Tree Hill back.It's the 7th season now and i pretty much can say that i grew up with it.If you notice some of the quotes that i used are from the show.I don't know why but somehow i feel like i can relate to the show and they never failed in making my days better after watching it.I think it would be the end of the world if they decided to stop the show.Even though Peyton and Lucas are no longer in the show,one tree hill will always be one tree hill.

I would like to quote some of the dialog that i found very interesting.

Quinn :"it's just a feeling that i have,this isnt what i want for the rest of my life"
Haley:"people have the right to change Quinn"
Quinn:"yeah but they also have the right to stay the same! they have the right to be the person they always been."

Do you think that people can really change? Do you think that people will always leave?

Light up the sky

2009-11-02T23:39:00.001+08:00

I went and watch Time traveler's wife last night.It was good.Rachel McAdams is just perfect for the role.For you emo people,please go and see the movie.And i suggest that you go alone.For you single people lah,not like you have any other option do you? *sob* By the way,what's up with people who always come late for a movie? Dont you know what time management is?Menganggu konsentrasi.Next time im gonna lock the door.Hahahahah kau ingat kuliah?!

I was browsing through youtube for ATC conversation and i came across few interesting one that i would like to share with you guys.But im sure some of you have heard it.Communication between aircraft and the controller is very important.It is so vital that even small mistake can cause a disaster.One thing about the controller is you need to be nice to them.Because if you don't,you'll either get scolded or they vector you out and sequence you the last for landing.Hahaha.I am not sure how true is the latter but i've heard of it.Sometimes they can be a bunch of tense people,sometimes they can be the coolest person,so it all depends.

Once i was flying my navigation sortie from Kota Bharu to Terengganu and normally we have to report our position at certain point.I was flying overhead Kg Marang and reported to her,then she asked me 'confirm Marrrrang or Merrrrang?' then i replied 'maaaarrranngg.' and she asked me the same question again.I realize that she have a problem of pronouncing the letter 'R' so i end up spell it out to her.M-A-R-A-N-G.After when i came for the approach,she gave clearance 'Clear to langggg runway zeghooo four' and i couldn't help but laugh while transmitting.

One time Kota Bharu tower trick my friend by asking whether he is overhead Kubang Kerian when he reported that he was overhead KB town 1500ft.When he told the tower that he is overhead KB town not Kubang Kerian,they replied 'Alaaa abe,dekat laaa tu'.So yeah they can be funny as that.

But sometimes,when it involve safety whenever there's a lot of traffic,don't ever make a stupid mistake.One time,someone make an approach on the the opposite side of the runway that he was cleared for,the tower got sooo mad that he was asked to meet them once he landed.

You might get some idea by watching this videos.It's so cool.Enjoy!

The film did not go 'round

2009-11-01T18:28:00.002+08:00

How's your weekend peeps? I met one of my good friend when i was in matriculation after 4 years.Reminiscing the days that we went through there was just hilarious and funny.I truly had a great time.My course mate was the best! Going to matriks was hard for me at the beginning,since it was my first time being away from home,so i got homesick for few weeks.The students from east coast outnumbered students from KL so it was a bit hard for me to adapt at first.But turn out they're the best people to hang out with.I don't really mix with those from KL there since they tend to have this 'i'm so much cooler than you' attitude.

Anyway,honestly i went there not for studying.I have no idea what the hell did i went there at first place.It was like 10 months of honeymoon for me.Probably because i felt intimidated by so many brilliant people in one place i just gave up.Korang semua jer la study.Hahaha.And the other thing was because i wanted to become a pilot so bad.So i couldn't focus on anything else.Kononnya lah!

Nevertheless, i am still my lecturers favorite student :p.Not because i am smart or anything but probably because i talk a lot.One of my favorite lecturer was my math lecturer.She's a mother of one and one cool lecturer.She graduated from UK so i really like to kacau her with the british accent and all.Yes,i am an anglophile.Everything about em' fascinates me.*cough* Cheryl Cole *cough*.Back to my lecturer,well most of my lecture mates scared of her because she's kinda garang in a way.Whoever late for her lecture will get kicked out and she'll lock the hall.But if i got late,she'll just look and say 'Haaa,late again..'.That's all.People get jealous over that.
But the bad thing about being recognized by the lecturer is that they tend to call out your names all the time.

Imagine there's 200 plus student in a lecture hall,suddenly your lecturer called you and ask you to solve the question in front.With the microphone,projector and 200 staring eyes.Scary i tell you.And you can't really escape the lecture.They'll notice if you're missing.Like one time i skip the lecture because i was so sleepy,the next day when i came she asked in front of everyone,with the microphone,'Yes Flyfreak (bukan nama sebenar),missing from my lecture yesterday,where did you go?' and all heads turn towards me.After that i never skipped her lecture.But she's really a nice person.Someone that i could take to and gossip with.

So many stuff happened there if i wanted to talk bout it,it'll be ages.But another significant event was when one of this girl from my course got caught together with a guy in the male toilet,at the night of Nuzul Quran,by a group of people coming back from the mosque! Tough luck.When they were questioned,they said that they almost had sex but tak sempat.Boleh? Some people took the matter seriously but i found it rather funny.
Because first,that guy looks like he hasn't been eating in years.Second,dude,it's the toilet.Could you find any other proper place or at least wait for the weekend or something? Third,they thought the place was secluded enough being a lecture hall toilet and no one would go there at night obviously but still they got caught just because one of the guys decided to use it since it's the nearest one.Kesian no? *ok tharish i cant help but using the catch phrase :P*

Haihhh so many good ol memories there.I was close with this 3 guys.Syam,Faheem and Din.Each one of us has different goals.I wanted to become a pilot.Syam wanted to be a pharmacist.Faheem always admire the medical profession and Din wanted to further in mechanical engineering.

And you know what,each one of us is doing what we always wanted to do.Syam is in General Hospital now.Faheem is doing a veterinary course and Din is in his final year in UM doing mechanical engineering.Story about faheem is kinda hilarious.Faheem was not a big fan of animal.Whenever he sees cat or a cat trying to approach him,he'll flip and shout 'Get those THING awayyyy from me! shuhhh shuhhh!' So when he was offered to do Vet i laughed and told him 'Tulahh,now you have to work with animals your entire life!'
One time he told me,'know what,i did the grossest thing today,i have to put my hand in a cow's arse,why me? why?!'

We all came from different background,but yet we are all same.Trying to make the best out of our lives and i am glad that we all get do things that we love.That's what matter most.Even though we didn't get to meet each other that often,but we know,we're there for each other.They will always remain there because they were part of my journey in achieving my dreams and so am i to them.You don't get to meet good people everyday,so why not savored those you already met.

Ok,for those who knows me well,they know that im a sucker for novels.When i was in flying school i read this book entitled The time traveler's wife and i did blog about it in my old blog.It was so good.Brilliant.So last month i came across the DVD of this movie.I didn't know that they were going to adapt it to movie.So i went frantic at the sight of it.Of course i bought it la.But the thing is i haven't got the time to watch it.But now since they're playing it at the cinema,i might as well just go and watch it right and it better be as good as the book.I swear i will burn the cinema if the movie sucks.No la i am kidding. But i will sure as hell get disappointed la cause im sick of all the producers who trying to make money out of a bloody good novels and destroyed my imaginations.Hampa ok hampa.Look at Khaled Hosseini's The Kite Runner,Harry Potter to name a few.Yes i am the biggest Harry Potter fan don't play play.

So yeah i might go and watch it.One of my blog reader told me that it's good so we'll see about that ;)
Remember i posted a link to Leona Lewis new video clip?,i just found the clip on youtube so im gonna post it again.Watch till the end ok.It's good kan Mr.M ? hahahahah You're Michale Buble pon not bad la.At last you got taste in music.Enjoy.

Someone once told me,that you have to choose

What you win or loose,you can't have everything

So what if it hurts me?

So what if i break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge?

My feet run out of the gorund?

I gotta find my place,i wanna hear my sound

Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Cause im just trying to be happy

See these bones

2009-10-29T23:09:00.001+08:00

Alamak tak tahu nak tulis apa lah.

Oh jumpa beberapa blog baru.Tertanya tanya adakah perlu letak muka sendiri dalam setiap post dengan posisi berbeza untuk menarik pembaca? atau gambar bogel dan tidak berbaju?

Ok set,nak letak gambar sexy sexy la lepas ni.Ada orang datang tak? Hahahahaha.

Tadi pergi kelas yoga.Lepas tu line dance funk.Bontot makin mantap ni!

Itu sahaja buat hari ni :)

What have we got to lose

2009-10-21T21:46:00.002+08:00

Just now,i read a blog belong to a friend.Haven't visited hers in months.We only met few times since she was my friend's girlfriend but i don't think that they're still together.She deleted all her previous posts but leave one last post where she wrote about things that used to happen for the last two years when she first started.How things are different back then and in present.

I do not know her that well to judge her but i truly admire her courage and braveness in facing the world when she got nothing to fall on.People change and we move on.It's us that decide what is good for our self,not others.And she did the right thing by standing firm on her decision.

Anyway,her post kinda inspired me to write about stuff that i think i've written before but never mind about that,you guys don't really need to read this.

At first when i started writing,my intention was,i want this to be a place where i can log my journey to remind me how it all started.So that i do not forget where i came from and the road that I've taken to be where i am today.It was rather a personal thoughts at the beginning and i didn't expect it to be as public as it is.Not kennysia or yoga instructor publicly, but you get what i mean.That is why sometimes i wrote about personal stuff,outings,ramblings etc because i do want to read about it again in the future.Like in 10 years time,if i read back my God's laugh post,i'll be thinking 'Oouh,i used to feel that way before and i do still feel the same way 10 years after,i guess i haven't change at all'.See the point?

But i am glad that people do read my ramblings,because i believe that we can mutually share our thoughts in certain issues and make us feel like we're not the only person who feel certain way.And i have made friends through blogging.So i did not lose anything by sharing with the people out there,aint it mate? But of course when you know that people gonna read your writings,you'll feel a lil bit under pressure,yerla takut grammar terabur,teroffended,terpoyo,terperasan bagus dan lain lain lah.Tapi yang penting apa,tak paksa baca kan?!

I write a lot. I like to jot down whatever that crosses my mind at any place any time.In my phone,laptop,notebooks obviously,journal,any tempat yang boleh di tulis lah.Sometimes,when i read back,i don't even know what i wrote.And i love to write people's conversation in my phone whenever i am bored waiting or anything because it's always funny when you read back.For example this is what i wrote in my phone while waiting outside the magistrate court to pay the summon,remember? 'Muka i ni kasi itu tandas kotor ker?' 'You tak baik tau buat saya macam ini.' ' Aaah bini dia tak bagi jumpa anak dia.Dia kahwin dua diam diam'.

This type of typical normal conversations always fascinates me.There's this Chinese lady wanted to use the toilet.But apparently they only have one toilet for public use which is for both sex.And woman's toilet is strictly for staff only.So when she was informed that the toilet is for both gender,she questioned the police officer 'You mau saya itu kencing pancut kaa? you tak baik tau buat saya macam ini.' Agak comel dan kelakar ayat dia sebenarnya tapi apa ke bodohnya tandas share?

Ok,gone too far out of topic.While i was browsing through my folders,i stumbled across this files entitled notes,stuff that i wrote circa 2008.I noticed that how fast things can change in a short period of time.
People who live,died.Friends become foes.Things that you wish for is granted.Some are not.That sort of thing.

I am really stressed out at the moment..I guess everyone who's in this line will go through the same thing.But then i thought,when i was in flying school,i did experienced this whole stress drama thing,but how did i cope with that last time? so i read back all the stuff that i wrote and that's it i found it!

Back then,i was kinda of a loner.I don't talk to people about private stuff,how i feel,what i do or where i go.I do everything on my own.People mistake that as being reserved and unsocial or maybe selfish.To my batch mates at least.But that is just me.For example,i would wake up early in the morning,when everyone is asleep and wait at the bus stand,just take any bus that pass through and see where it goes.I used to walk all over KB town alone,find good place to eat,just sit and observe people and in the end of the day i would go back to the hostel and feel good about myself.As if i've just accomplished something big by being on my own.There's one time i walked from KB mall to KBMC (orang orang KB tahu la kot jauh tak jauh) to visit one of my batch mate who was admitted in the hospital,alone.Of course none of my other batch mates knows about it.When i went back,some of them make a fuss about it,making stupid remarks on how i like to do things alone,that i probably went out for a date la..that sort of nonsense.Perlu ke bagitahu semua benda pon sebenarnya? That sort of stuff you know.I should not dwell too much in this matter.

That is why i am a bit emotional when i talk about my flying school days.That place taught me a lot of things.My strength,my weaknesses,my belief and friendship.It's a place where not too hyperbolic for me to say shapes the person that i am today.

Back to how did i cope with stress back then,the answer is very simple,JOG! yes,jogging. I love jogging.At one point im addicted to it.Yes they can be addictive you know!
So what i did was every single day,every evening,i would jog in front of the crew residence.With my headphone on,listening to the same music back to back,and that's it.There i will meet the same joggers,cewahh ada geng pulak and soalan standard 'berapa round dah?' 'boleh lagi boleh lagi come on!'
So,that would be my routine.On weekend i would wake up early in the morning and jog all the way to the end of traffic light,turn right and there will be a small bridge fit for only one car at a time to pass through and it is the best place to view the sunrise(gila detail).It's so fantastic i tell you.Damn it i miss that place.
After all the running,eventhough it was exhausting,i felt good.Don't you feel sooo good after working out?

Physical exercise releases damaging stress hormones, virtually moving them out of the body, generates endorphins (feel-good chemistry), increases levels of serotonin and balances the brain. Exercise also generates new nerve cells in the brain and enhances the connections between brain cells, which chronic stress shrinks. That can trigger depression, which shrinks the brain even more. However, there is great news. Exercise reverses this process; in fact, exercise causes the brain to grow and flower. After you exercise, you reap the rewards of the relaxation response both physically and emotionally. You have met a challenge and accomplished it. This process reinforces your personal empowerment and actually raises your threshold for stress, which transfers to all the stressors in your life. Google.

Apart from that,i made a vision board.I wrote what are my goals,pictures of stuff that i want so badly and stare at them every single day.Try to set something to look forward to.If didn't kept a journal or write about this sort of stuff anywhere,i might have forgotten how to handle certain issues that i have encountered before.See how important notes are!

Since i was so much of a loner back then la kan,i always pray to God to surround me with positive friends,i do not need a thousand,but a few quality one would be great.And alhamdullilah,my wish was granted.This people are actually already there all along in front of my eyes.It's by chances,fate,and luck that we get to know each other.Few friends from childhood remains the best eventhough we dont get to meet that often,but we're there for each other,friends from flying school that i wished i knew sooner not after we finished! apam who i met by sheer luck.You guys know who you are ;)

It is true that when God took something from us,He will replace it with something better.He is after all knows what is best for us.I couldn't wish for any better.But i still do miss the people in Kota Bharu,for each one of them has taught me different things.I do not want to hold grudge against anyone,we are only growing older not younger,plus aviation world is not big,balik balik muka tu jugak jumpa kan?

Since i've neglected my physical needs i.e exercise for quite sometime,just now i went to play squashy! It was such a relieved! Im feeling energetic and happy :)

Check out this new video clip from Leona Lewis.Gila sedih,so unpredictable and a great song nevertheless.She's so freakin hot btw.
http://perezhilton.com/2009-10-19-new-leona-lewis

p/s: Hari itu ada manusia bikin saya mengamuk di khalayak ramai.You mess with the wrong person ok,silap orang la nak buat kerek.This is not over! HAH HAH HAH ada mood saya cerita.Have a good day ahead people :)

Reminiscing the old days

2009-10-16T15:32:00.004+08:00

Wednesday morning

*kringg* * kringg*

Me: "Hellooooooo pammm,what's up what's up?" (baru bangun tidur)
Ms.Sierra:"Pammmm,jom pergi Melaka? abang ajak"
Me:"Huh? tiba tiba? bila?"
Ms Sierra:"Sekarang?"
Me:"aaaa okayy!"

I needed a getaway anyway.Life is so stressful at the moment.Went there to visit Ms Sierra's flying school,MFA.

I miss my flying school days.

p/s: back on FB for a while.We'll see how it goes.First thing that they highlighted,
Asia Pacific Flight Training
22 friends are fans
Become a fan

hahahaahah for some reason,the fact that my flying school now have a group is ridiculously funny.Why do i even write about this at first place.Shit.I need entertainment.

When you were near

2009-10-08T15:24:00.003+08:00

Malaysians are very nice people no? It's a fact actually.During my last class in CRM,they showed us the statistical result on which country are the most generous countries in the world,surprisingly Malaysia's doing not too bad at all.Compare with the rest of our asean neighbors we came top.

Even with the whole fiasco of 'Ganyang Malingsia' and 'sweeping' debacle,it didn't affect our humanitarian values that we hold on to.The recent earthquake that affected Indonesia is a proof that we still care despite the ridiculous unintelligent demonstration that they held againts us.

Yesterday did SNY to Singapore and Denpasar Bali.The sight of other aircraft cruising 34000 ft above or below always fascinates me.Makes me go 'Wow,look there's another aircraft!' and how big they look when flying together.Awesome view.Not to mention flying above active volcanoes.Ok,i assumed it's active since there's smoke coming out from the crater.

I fall in love with this song ever since i heard it for the first time.I think it's so sexy.Don't know which part.Probably the lyrics represents as much as what i have in my mind.But then i know that i will hate it soon.
I have this tendency of rejecting things that i like when it becomes a norm to other people or whenever they want something that i want.For example if i want something so bad and people around me enjoy the same thing,i'll pass.
Or even if i think someone is hot and my friends think the person is hot too,that person will automatically be the ugliest person.I don't mind forgetting or giving away what i have if some other person want it.I've given up friendship because of this bad habit of mine.Poyo gile kan.Lebih kurang macam 'Ha,kau nak sangat kan?AMIK!' So Mr.Unknown Reader,im a philophobia,cenophobia and sociophobia,what's next? hahahaha

Can you meet me halfway,right at the borderline?

That's where im gonna wait for you

I'll be looking out,night and day

Took my heart to the limit and this is where i stay.

Heart matters

2009-10-05T23:42:00.000+08:00

I don't believe the human heart was made to be put through the abuse of the dating world.I've been thinking about lot of stuff lately.Not like it bothers me but just the thought of it.
I had an interesting discussion with Sharman.Apart from the usual gossips catch up,we do talk about certain serious matters.

My dating life is pathetic.I've never dated anyone seriously.And i don't think that i ever will.That's what i thought at this moment.You know when you're just so independent,you don't feel like you need someone else to be there for you.I am used to being alone and i am used of doing everything on my own without the help of others.I think I've already developed this traits of selfishness,cockiness,ignorance up to a point where i think that no one is good enough for me.

Most probably you will say that i was heartbroken.That is why i am being so pessimist.Maybe and maybe not.To tell you the truth i don't believe in love.I don't believe in forever ever after.I don't believe that it will happen to me at least.But i do believe that other people can achieve that.Just not me.

Ever since i was a kid,i made my own decision.That hasn't change.If i want something,i will make sure i will do it and get it.

I was in love.More of a crush.And i did not enjoy every moment of it.As a matter of fact,i felt disgust with my ownself.For letting someone else take control.You don't choose who you fall for.You just do.The next thing you know,your life is a complete mess.Losing control of your life is rather devastating.Because you know that you are better than that but there is nothing you can do about it.

I told myself that i will never,ever put myself in that situation again.That was the last time.

Wislawa Szymborska wrote
True love. Is it normal,
is it serious, is it practical?
What does the world get from two people
who exist in a world of their own?

Ironic but true.Or maybe im just too scared of the rejection? A lot of what if's boggling in the head.

Forgiveness is never easy. Bitterness is easy, Hatred is easy. But forgiveness, that is a tough one. Sometimes people say things they don't mean or do things they can't take back. Sometimes we do things we can't take back. We're all afraid of something. I was afraid.And i still am.I am afraid to be vulnerable.If something or someone is so important to you,a friend or whoever,you should make it right from the beginning.Second chances is not the answer.I don't believe in second chances.You had your chance so make use of it.If you take things for granted and you lose it,it's too late to turn and take things back.If you did everything you could,and it didn't work out,then it were never meant to be.

Albert Camus once wrote, "Blessed are the hearts that can bend. They shall never be broken." But I wonder.... If there's no breaking, then there's no healing. And if there's no healing, then there is no learning. And if there's no learning, then there's no struggle. But the struggle is a part of life, So must all hearts be broken ?

They say we leave this world just the way we came into it,naked and alone.
So, if we do leave with nothing, What then, is a measure of a life ? Is it defined by the people we choose to love ?Or is life simply measured by our accomplishments ?And what if we fail ? or are never truly loved ? What then ? Can we ever measure up ?Or will the quiet desperation of a life gone wanting.

Looking at friends in love is such a beautiful sights.Eventhough you don't get to feel it,you know that you're happy that someone else get the chance to experience it.We are born with different purposes.I believe that i have my own mission.That does not involve me devoting myself to another human being.That was just rather selfish.
Love is actually a beautiful thing.The big question is,will you get to experience it? and does it really matter whether you do or not?

Some say that,it is just a matter of time before you meet the right one.Things will be different after that.
I am not sure whether i want to meet the one at first place.

Happiness comes in many form.In a company of good friends.In a feeling you get when you make someone elses dream come true or in a promise of hope renewed.

p/s: I really wanna go to Beyonce's concert.Siapa pergi angkat tangan?! Shamu let's go and have a 'Sweet dreams' moment!

Fight for this love

2009-10-05T14:39:00.001+08:00

Last week i went to a magistrate court in Sepang to pay my dad's summon for not wearing the seat belt while driving.He was working that day and asked me to represent him to pay the summon.

I thought it's just a place where there will be a counter and you just pay.But i was wrong.It's actually a court.Like a real court.I've never been in one before.So i got scared and nervous.The fact that everyone stares at me does not help either.I swear everyone have this tense piercy stares.I felt like i am on trial for rape charges or something.

So what they do is,they will call one by one,to stand in front of the magistrate,translator and police officers,one of them will read the charges and ask you whether you plead guilty or ask for trial.Soooo scary right?

But the funny part is hearing all this grandma's stories that all this people came up with.So full of bullshit.At one time i have to cover my face with my bag because i couldnt stop laughing.Ridiculous.After you pleaded guilty,they will ask,whether you want to enter a plea to reduce the charges or whatsoever.

Most of them came up with the same stories,'I have many kids,just had an operation,on medication,business gone down etc etc' So i was scratching my head ,what grandma's stories should i tell?
When it was my turn,i just stood there like an idiot not knowing what to say other than "Yes,guilty" while laughing.Then he asked whether i am still studying,i said "Yes!" So they denda me RM120! so no need bullshit stories just innocent face.You're good! But still,people can't stop staring! Tak pakai seatbelts je bukan rogol orang.I am still scared of policeman tho!

I actually wanted to write about something else.Nantilah.But what i can say is that,knowing too much can get you hurt.Sometimes things are better left in the dark.Right? What you dont know doesnt hurt you.

Supernumerary

2009-10-04T21:04:00.004+08:00

I did few observation flights for the past few days.Or better known as SNY (Supernumerary).

Bangkok and Kota Bharu sector.

Kota Kinabalu and Singapore sector.

The quality of the videos sucks,i know.

The lucky ones

2009-10-04T01:17:00.003+08:00

Yo yo yo what's up peeps? Sorry for the long absence.Things is kinda hectic at the moment.There's lot of stuff to share with you guys but there's no time to sit and write about it! I just got back from the Airshow at Subang,damn was it awesome or what?! I got shivers on my neck,hands! and face! Super crowded tho'.Didn't get the chance to take many pictures.El cheapo cam.Just about to snap,by the time the camera is on,the aircraft is gone.Im writing a 5 years old english sentences because im in a rush and i actually need to get ready for an open house.Padahal english memang terabur.So excuse the sentences!

Oh by the way,i managed to get a seat back to KB night before raya but it was the last flight and i waited at the airport since 3pm.

Anyway,few days after raya,third raya to be exact,we had a pot luck gathering at Ms. Sierra's house.Each one of us were supposed to cook and bring something,that's the whole purpose la kan.End up most of them wanted to bring desert,probably because that's the easiest one to make.Oppss! hahahah So i was left with no choice but to cook the main course.Bugger! Dah la tak reti memasak sangat.Fikir punya la fikir,last last spaghetti jer lah.But here's the thing,how am i supposed to cook when i have a class that day from 8am to 6pm.

Soon after the class,dashed back home to change and went straight to Ms Sierra's house as i thought it would be easier to cook there.But the host pulak still at mid valley having a massage! Padahal open house ni.Hahahaha.Thank God she already bought the stuff to cook.Sampai rumah,masing-masing gelabah bomba la (Abang Kuda's term for panicking tak tentu pasal).

But the whole process of kelam-kabut'ing was fun! Spaghetti punya recipe main campak.Nasib Ms Sierra's mum lend a hand.If not tak rupa spgahetti lah.Ouh we had barbeque as well! Turn out everyone was late,so enough time for us to prepare.Janji melayu ada bagusnya sometimes.Oh we also threw a surprise birthday party for Foxtrot.Enjoy the pics! Thanks syazsy! again.hahahah

Selamat Hari Raya!

2009-09-19T12:51:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya everyone! how's the preparation? tak payah prepare sangat lah esok pon raya!

Anyway,last night was my endorsement flight.It was fantastic! Take off from KUL runway 32R to SZB.Runway 15 was in use and the weather was perfect.It was raining heavily prior to departing but after that it was a clear sky.Boleh nampak orang main bunga api lagi!

Traffic was a bit busy in SZB so we required to hold few times due to Firefly inbound traffic.Wonder if one of them is Jazmi.Apart from that,everything was good.

That's it.Here i would like to take the oppurtunity to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya,Maaf Zahir dan Batin.If i offended anyone with my writings,comments etc Sorry ok? Kadang kadang memang sengaja hahahaha.Have a safe and fun Raya peeps!

Now i have to pack up to go back to airport.Family all gone back to kampung.Father is working,pukul berapa land tak tahu,and i have to catch a flight back to KB.Tolonglah ada seat!

After afterall

2009-09-14T22:04:00.003+08:00

The other day i went out for buka puasa at Bangsar.It's all about seafood! Dont you just love those juicy marinated crabs,prawns and not forgetting grilled chicken,beef and lamb? Fantastic aint it!

Earlier before going out,i was chatting with one of my blog reader and apparently he said that he's going to be around somewhere in Bangsar as well for buka puasa with a group of exchange students.So i told him if sempat we can meet up or something.As i was driving along Jalan Maarof trying to locate the restaurant,i bump into this group of foreigners,and di celah celah mereka was this guy with a big hair-do (yes Azhan it was obvious) so i thought this must be him! I rolled down my window and jerit "Azhan!",he looked with a puzzled face,a 2 seconds hand shake and that was it!

Macam tak percaya dapat jumpa my blog reader.The most bizzare thing is actually the fact that there's people who read my craps.Hahahahah.Blogging world is exciting.

You guys should watch this! Hilarious yet brilliant!

Thanks Mon for the pics.syazsy.com

p/s: baru belajar upload gambar through photobucket.A lil bit better isnt it? ker the previous ones are better? What do you guys think?

Here goes something part Deux

2009-09-07T17:29:00.004+08:00

I went and watch Final Destination last night.That's it.I will never watch anything that is rated as 18SG.I never like gruesome bloody movie and i will never like em'.I still remember there's one time,when i was in matriculation,we all went out to the mall in Kuantan to watch 'House of Wax'.It's Paris Hilton for God sake and i kept my eyes closed the whole movie.I just have to stay sit for the sake of others.One time,i was with a friend to watch a late night movie,nothing good was on except this Korean horror movie which i thought might be fun.
The movie only started for 5 minutes,suddenly "BUMMM" the bride fall from the top floor at her reception and blood start coming out from her head etc.That's it, i just walked out from the cinema.Yeah im pretty much a chicken when it comes to blood and gruesome stuff.But if nak teman tu boleh lah,i'll just sleep the whole movie ok.

Back to the sambungan cerita,

The plane took of at 7pm and once landed in KL,i called Miss Sierra check whether i can still make it to OU but apparently they're about to leave so she said let's meet up at her house.Because it was just her and abang.Foxtrot text me earlier and said that he can't join us for buka puasa.So oklah.When i was about to reach her house,she called and said that could i pick abang up from his house first because he went back to buy food for his gardener and he got no transport.Aiyooo detail nye cerita.But yeah,him not having a transport is just weird.So i picked him up,and i asked him where are we going and he said i dont know,you decide but let's go to Miss Sierra's place first.

Arrived at her place,the guard asked us to park at LG6 probably cause upstairs was full.(ra guard tu kecoh mamat la).She called me and asked me where do i park,and i told her i was on my way to LG 6.She sounded a lil distress and seconds after she called abang.We already parked the car at LG 6 but Miss Sierra said go back up to LG 3 and park at her place.And she called again where am i exactly,so i told her that im exactly in front of the lift.While waiting in the car,what seems like hours doesnt feel like it because i was too preoccupied chatting and listening to abang's story.It doesnt trigger to me why the hell does she took so long to come down? And then she came.She doesnt look like herself.Hahahaha.

She asked me to get out from the car and hug her because she said dah lama tak jumpa padahal baru berapa hari.ok fine.So i went out from the car,tiba tiba...

The lift opened and SURPRISEEEEEE all this people came stormed out from the lift with a cake.I was so shocked like literally rasa nak pengsan ada.Everyone was there.Foxtrot,Mon,Tharish,Sharman,Miss Sierra,Abang kuda and Bayu ( mon's friend).Rasa nak nangis ada.But control macho la ni.

I mean i could never imagine that all of this people in the same place.It's just so bizarre.And it's at the parking lot,at Miss Sierra's house! what the eff?! they're all here!

I was speechless and felt a lil bit dizzy trying to absorb the information,like what? but how? but? you know all sort of questions.Apparently they've been planning this for the whole week.

It was all planned out.But they were few last minute changes since my flight got delayed.Nevertheless everything was just perfect.It couldnt get any better!

No one has ever threw a surprise birthday party for me.I feel so blessed and wanted.For the effort and the thoughts that they made.Hats off.I cant help to think about how last year was so different and how something can flip 360 in just a year time.There is truly lights in the end of the tunnel.

Kawan mana yang sanggup swap flight just so that she can make it on the eve of my birthday.Friend who go the extra mile to contact everyone and actually make this happen.Siap masakkan jelly lagi.Friends who are willing to sacrifise their own time just to be there eventhough they already had a long day.I couldn't ask for more.Dont you wish you have friends like them? I feel truly blessed.You guys truly are a keeper.

After that we went to Chawan at Bangsar for the after partayyy hahahah.I had a lot of fun.Karth who happened to be there dropped by as well.Bayu was being such a nice person by treating us for the night and the valet parking.Valet ok.Daymnnnn.

Thank you all for the surprise.You totally got me there.Love you loads.Thank you for the gifts.Love it love it.

The pictures aren't so great but oklah.El cheapo cam kan.Waiting for better pictures taken by professional photogs.hahahahah.I'll probably update em' later.

To my beloved friends,this song is for you guys since all of us love this song.Who doesn't?!

Here goes something

2009-09-06T13:37:00.001+08:00

Well hello people!

I am so excited i dont know where to start.First thing first.I've been very busy with simulator lately thus explain the absence.Nevertheless eveything goes well and alhamdulillah i passed my skills test! So one down another two to go.Endorsment and line training.Thank you thank you for all the kind and encouraging wishes my dear beloved friends.You guys know who you are.

Ok here's the main story.My last session started at 6:30 am on Friday.Earlier that night i was thinking that hmmm i might go back to KB for awhile after my session finishes.Because i've promised to Abang Nazri and Don to pay a visit for so long but the schedule was a bit tight there's no room to plan a getway.So that was a good timing.Plus next week i'll be busy with SNY and endorsement.I told them that i will only go if i pass my skills and alhamdulillah i did.

So i took the 3:40 pm flight and arrived there 50 minutes later.After that we went straight to the pasar ramadhan at the stadium.Last year's puasa i was there and this year i dont think there's much difference to it except that there's tonnes of people la.Wonder what the hype is all about.The planning was we wanted to buy stuff to eat for a little first but go for a heavy dinner after the terawih.Tapi after buka puasa baring atas katil terus tertidur! Terawih ntah ke mana dah.My day started at 3am.Yerla drive one hour.Briefing lagi.Penat sangat.

They're staying at Ridel's apartment located just beside the Kelantan River.Nice view aint it? The sunset was just breathtaking!

Right after Abang Nazri got back from the surau we went to eat.This place is called Keng Som.It's a thai restaurant and i fall in love with the food and it's a must visit everytime i go back to KB.The food is awesome.Fantastic.I wanted to take pictures of the food actually tapi lapar sangat terus makan.But it's good la i tell you,tak menyesal punya lah!

After the dinner,i went to Wakaf Che Yeh.It is actually a night market .Nothing great about it except that you can get lost in the rows of stalls.But i stumbled across this drink.Barbican.It's actually a malt drink and it's non alcohol.Just that the presentation of the bottle make it look like a bottle of beer.It's just weird la that i i came across it in KB.Normally they have this drinks at arab's restaurant.Ceritanya because of the presentation,we attracted a lot of weird eyes.Probably they thought it's an alcohol ke apa.On the way back to the car,ada satu pak cik ni tanya,'air gapo tu'?!

Cuak sekejap.Hahahahah but yeah probably it's a new thing there.

The next day,i slept the whole day while waiting for them to get back from the class.I went to the new parkson mall.Kota Bharu ada Parkson weiii dont play play.That time it was already 3pm.There's another flight at 5pm and i thought that i could make it back to KL before the buka puasa as i already promised with Miss Sierra,Abang and Foxtrot to buka puasa together few days earlier.

So went to the airport,plenty of seats available,weather was good,so i believed that i could make it.Waited at the boarding room,suddenly it was raining heavily.Like so bad! The aircraft that i was supposed to take diverted back to KL and they said that they said that next flight would be at 7pm! Bugger.

I felt so bad because i've promised them to buka puasa together,but luckily they understand and said that after landed just go straight to Miss Sierra's house and we can go for supper later.

After that something happened....jeng jeng jeng.To be continue.hahahhahaha.

Forever is over

2009-08-25T14:04:00.003+08:00

How is it going so far guys?
Sikit lagi,another 26 days!

Yesterday i went to pasar Ramadhan,the one near Shah Alam's Stadium.My,was it big or what? And crowded too.Bump into few people.Heard a very disturbing unnecessary information from one of em' but it doesnt matter anymore.Im over it yawww! Hahahah i never meant to brag but if it weren't because of me,you're nowhere near what you get now.Damn,does it feels sooo good? It sure does.Oh well,the only thing is that you were using me,in a different way that i was using you.So i guess we're equal :)

Anyway,what are your favourite dishes for buka puasa people? As for me,i love murtabak and roti john! I need to have them everyday.Funny how after puasa tak makan pulak right?
And soya! yang ni puasa ke tak puasa memang all time favourite!

My next session would start at 7:15pm.I was thinking how am i going to buka puasa like this.Hmmm.

Tulis apa lagi.

Oh,i think im in love.Hahahahaha.Hot hot hot.Tiba tiba rasa nak belajar cakap Thai.Kap kun kap!

Selamat Berpuasa

2009-08-21T23:23:00.004+08:00

Selamat Berpuasa gentle readers.

Looking forward for this Ramadhan since i get to fast at home after years in 'exile'.Matriculation,University,Flying school.Last year was fun.I hope this year will be better.
I believe it will.

And training will also be in fasting month.Lagi berkat lah kot,hopefully :)

Since semua blog dah update pasal bulan yang mulia ini dan rasanya gambar google semua orang
dah guna,i came across this picture in my albums which i took in Soekarno Hatta Airport.
Masih tak faham konsep iklan ini.

I want something that i want

2009-08-18T20:24:00.005+08:00

Siapa kata jadi pilot senang?!

Haaaa tu diaaaa terus open ayat macam tu.

*mood garang*

Hello,it's not all about automation ok.Autopilot is a luxury but not necessity! That's why as long as you want this big bird to fly up in the air,there must be someone behind the control!

Ehermmm

*mood ustaz*

Para hadirin ya,the plane can still fly without automation! surpsrise surprise! But the automation is simply there to help ease the burden of the pilots and it is for commercial flying.Bumpy sikit orang complain,hard landing sikit orang complain.Pakcik makcik! kalau dah selamat sampai tu ALHAMDULLILAH! syukur kepada Tuhan! One time i was in a flight from KL to KBR.Behind me there's this three dude yang boleh mendatangkan kemarahan! So when it comes tu the landing,it was not a smooth kiss landing which is fine by me,cause i dont believe in if you make a kiss landing you're an ace pilot.Landing comes with experience.As long as you make a safe landing you're good enough.So upon touch down one of this dude said "Drebar baru kali,deras gitemo,de co pilot ni " Tak faham sudah. First,kau kenapa?! Second,kalau hard landing jer co pilot kan! Did you know that KBR is a captain sector meaning co pilot can't land there! Cam tuttt...

My point of story is,there's a reason why we need two pilot in a cockpit.If the automation goes well,then alhamdullilah,it'll be less work for the pilot,but doesnt mean no work at all! No such thing tidur tidur ni.You have to check the fuel,weather at destination,traffic, and etc.

Ok so what happen if there is any failure? this is the part where pilots play an important role.They have to take over,hand fly the aircraft ( depends on what type of failure) and the other pilot have to do the Ecam actions or in simpler word the procedure in rectifying the problem.
But not to worry,modern day aircraft is so amazingly sophisticated that even if there is any failure,it's controlable.

But to be able to handle this situation is the main obstacle.We are all human beings.We do panic sometimes.But that is what the training are for.

I am doing my simulator sessions at the moment.Honestly speaking it is stressful.I dont call it a breakdown,but more of a reality check.I can't help to wonder if this is the right thing for me?

I have consolidated advises that i got from close friends of mine and it made me realize that i've been wanting this for so long and i might as well be grateful with it and do the best that i could.
And it made me think that how grateful i am to have a strong support from my family and this people i knew in short time and yet they are the best people i've ever met.I may have speak highly about some of them in my blog but i am not ashamed of it.But i have yet to talk about this two particular person who actually made this journey easier and possible for me,none other than my mother and father.Apart from God of course.Im waiting for the moment that i've been waiting for my entire life to happen then only i will talk about two of them.

Reason why i enjoy talking about this amazing people that i get to know is beacause im thankful and i want them to know how important they are for me.Remember i used to said that i do not want to regret about things that i should've said or do earlier? This is one of em'.To let them know that if i miss them or if i love them,i will text or call or whatever to tell them that 'i miss you' and 'i love you'.Those that i have contacted personally and talked about this,you guys know who you are.Dari Abu Dhabi ke Kota Bharu,Stanstead ke Sepang,Shah Alam ke Melbourne.You guys are amazing :)

Ramadhan is in few days right? This time things will be different.I can feel it.It will be better.Im looking forward celebrating it with fantastic people around me.And hopefully we all will be able to complete it and becoming a better muslim.InsyaAllah.

Pray for my success right gentle readers.Very much appreciated :)

I CAN DO THIS! InsyaAllah.

Leaving town alive

2009-08-15T21:03:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps,how's the weekend so far? good,lame or the usual thing? Mine is not as productive as it used to be.Not like every weekend was hectic but i always tried to get myself occupied with stuff even when im at home.But today i did nothing.Television is no longer part of my basic necessities.So we can cut that out.Thanks to the internet and Youtube.My brain is not at it's best 'working function' today so please excuse the crap talking.

It's just that there's so many stuff in the head and i don't know where to begin sorting it out.You know like a messed up pile of workload on the table where you want to sieve them accordingly and then you couldnt be bothered to do cause it will end up in the same mess again.Oh dear my analogy is getting crapier in each post.

I am tired.I want to go pantai.Hahaha speaking of rojak language,everyone do speak rojak nowadays right,yesterday i have succesfully put myself to shame by being the most rojak person you can ever met,i was walking with Foxtrot and his friend and my eyes caught this weird looking thing where you can place tissues in it,so i asked Foxtort,'that is bottttleeeee susu right?!'
Pronounce BOTTTLEEEE with the thickest Yorkshire accent that you can immitate.That's how i sounded like.I stopped walking and i just look at Foxtrot and asked him,'Did i just said BOTTTLEEE like BOTTLLEEEE?!' Oh crap sebut je la BOTOL SUSU!

Haih someone please slap me twice,real hard and kick me! I think my brain has gone off to standby mode lately.

What i really want to talk about is that at one point,life could be energetic,where everything seems like going accordingly the way you want it to be,but it will never be that way eternaly.There's a saying that long straight road would a boring journey.And that is true.I bumped into my English teacher.Surprisingly she still remembers me.And i left school years back.Aint it funny how the time goes by? First you start believing then you're leaving for no reason and you're wondering why? Watching days and moving on,you wake up every Monday then suddennly it's Sunday and the week is gone.

Do you wonder where it starts,where it ends,what you find around the bend? Now and then you wonder.So till the morning breaks,go and make your mistakes,don’t be surprised at the sunrise.
Life is for the living, the forgiven and for leaving town alive.

Love love love this song.All time favourite as well.

Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely,i'll follow you
When the stars go blue

Turn me loose

2009-08-12T11:37:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was a tiring day and F-U-N!

I had my session early in the morning.Right after the session dashed to the terminal to meet M who was on his way back to Melbourne.I totally forgot that he's leaving yesterday.Haih such a bad friend.Hanging out at the oldtown and realized that staff could get a 15% discount! Woot woot!

After that drove to Miss Sierra's house to park my car cause we're going to do something fun later! For the first time! Jeng jeng jeng.

Before that,on the highway,there was this entourage of cars i don't know who but probably someone who payed the most tax in Malaysia la kot.You know why,because you see that car was in the middle lane,and the 'supporting role' cars was on the right lane and far left lane blocking other cars from overtaking this main car.Get what i mean.So there was this long queue of cars on the fast lane but driving like 40km/h.ridiculous kan? see,that's why i hate driving.

But anyway,what we did was,we joined the body step class at the FF The Curve for the first time! Foxtrot joined us as well.It was so much fun and hilarious.We were beginners of course tapi tetap duduk front row ni! And it was harder than i expected it to be.Nevertheless i felt good after that and my butt felt firmer. Hahaha.

the exhaustion faces

Ok letih la nak menaip.I need to study.Have a great day!

You found me

2009-08-09T18:30:00.000+08:00

Im back!

*clap* *clap*

Ok,where do we start? I miss blogging to tell you the truth.It's been only like what? 2 weeks?
Lot of stuff to write and share but it's like im having a brain freeze for a sec here .You know when you have a damn good ice blended or something and you suck it up so quick cause it's bloody good and it feels like it shoot up right to your brain but not down through your trachea.Trachea.pfttt..what la my ayat. oh throat!.excuse the blabbering.

Im just gonna write about few important stuff today.

First,is about the privatization of cabincrewareheretokickurass.blogspot i.e kak saloma. On behalf of her i would like to say that she's not going to update her blog anymore nor does she want people to read her previous posts.It was merely a personal issues nothing to do with political or policy matter.Tiba tiba! I am such a bad spokeperson.Sorry kak.But yeah she'll be around in the blogging atmosphere to drop few lines when she felt it is necessary and of course im pretty sure she would still like to read and visit other blogs as well.So look out for her presence.She said that she'll definitely miss blogging and miss reading all those comments from her visitors but this is what best for her.So don't feel bad that you're not invited to read or anything because there wont be any updates.Alrighty :)

For two people who left their comments on my previous post,Ah Tiani and Faiz.Nasir,thank you so much for the wish.I'll definetely get back to your questions later.No Ah tiani,i am not bored,i was just busy sorting out something and Miss Sierra is a bit busy too and she'll be back real soon.So look out for her post.

For my silent reader (you know who you are) who's brave enough to come up and email me,i am humbly honoured and touched by your kind words and it gives me more reason to continue blogging.So yeah thank you.

For my apam,abang and foxy,love you guys!

And to Mon,hahahahahahaah,im gonna make him feel super uncomfortable.Nantikan!

Kak Saloma,it feels soooo good isnt it?

Life definitely couldnt be better :) Esok Monday and im off! Tuesday is something new.Can't wait.

Some streets lead nowhere

2009-07-24T12:30:00.001+08:00

Will stop blogging for a while.

Will be back.Maybe or maybe not.We'll see.

cheers! have a great day people :)

It ends here

2009-07-23T13:22:00.000+08:00

Tu diaaaa suspens tak title post.Ini betul meroyan.Sekejap emo sekejap meriah.Sekejap tulis melayu sekejap english.Gila attention seeker.

Sebenarnya,tak tahu nak update apa.Tapi tangan ni mengigil gigil mahu menulis.Habisla apa punya ayat melayu ntah.Terus teringat buku karangan kene campak keluar kelas sebab TERPESONG masa darjah enam.Penat penat mengarang terpesong katanya.Cissss!

Hmm semalam tiba tiba teringat dekat best friend pertama dalam hidup ini.Cewahhh..
Nama dia Ansar Asnawi.But i called him Awie.We became friends when i was 6 in Jitra Kedah.That time my father was posted there.We lived in the same area and we went to primary school together.Basically everything together lah.

Those days were one of the most happiest moment in my life.It's all about having fun and fun!

Awie ni agak manja orangnya since he's the youngest in his family.

Pergi sekolah naik transport sama.Selalunya waktu pulang transport tu akan penuh dengan kakak dari sekolah menengah.Comel comel.Saya dan awie ni selalunya mesti tidur time balik sekolah dan kakak kakak ni selalu akan letak kepala kami atas riba diaorang tanpa di pinta.Adakah kerana kami ni comel atau mereka ini paedophile? Opsss. Rindu mereka.Tiba tiba! padahal tak ingat pon nama and muka.Eh macam rhyme la.mereka dan muka.ok next.

Basically hari hari kami akan bermain sama lepas sekolah.Pecahkan telur itik la,kutip biji getah la,macam duduk dalam estet kan? tapi itula rutin harian.Jangan tanya kenapa kutip biji getah.Ada kawan kata biji tu boleh makan,so kitaorg pon kutip la penuh satu plastic bawak balik rumah,tunjuk dekat mak suruh masak tapi dia buat bodoh jer.Sedih.

Apa yang saya ada,awie pon akan ada.Contohnya saya beli pencil sharpener bentuk ultraman,awie pon nak jugak.Awie pakai seluar pendek pergi sekolah warna biru tua tu kan,tapi saya tak lah ikut sebab rasa macam sexy sangat.Malu.

Ha,kitaorg disunatkan pon sekali.Dia,saya dan abang saya.Lupa dah nama klinik tu.Ingat lagi pagi tu,tak adalah cuak mana,tapi awie was the first person disunatkan.Dari luar tengah tunggu,dengar awie jerit jerit SAKIT SAKIT BAH SAKIT TAK NAK!

slurrppp terus telan air liur.Takut sekejap.Sampai my time,relax lagi.Dia pon potong.Tak rasa apa pon,sejuk jer.Dalam hati,Babi betul over sangat meraung padahal tak rasa! Macam itulah si awie over reacting sangat.

Ada satu time tu,awie call rumah saya,dia kata ada emergency dekat hospital! Tanyala dia hospital mana?! Dia kata rumah dia la hospital,doktor diperlukan! So saya dan abang pon berlari watson nyambek merentas padang yang bapak besar ke rumah dia.Sampai sampai tanya dia,siapa sakit? Dia kata KUCING NAK BERANAK!

BOLEH TAK?!! aiyooo ko kenapa?! Si awie ni pergi kurung kucing tu dalam bilik paksa dia beranak.Kitaorg tunggu luar bilik.Dia kata,macam tunggu isteri beranak kan? Tu diaaa 6 tahun dah beristeri isteri.Sekejap sekejap bukak pintu intai.Memang la kucing tu tak beranak!

Last last anak kucing tu mati dalam kandungan sebab peram lama sangat kot.Keluar keluar memang dah mati.Awie pon menangis.Drama sungguh budak ni.

Kami pon ada join group taekwondo sama sama.Tapi dia tak minat sangat.Alasan ada asthma.Tapi dia memang bawak benda pump tu hari hari.Dulu saya rasa benda tu sangat cool.Boleh sedut sedut.

End of the year darjah satu,ada orientation darjah dua for the following year.Tapi this time saya makin pandai jadi saya pon naik kelas dan Awie masih maintain di kelas sama.Poyo sekejap.
Masa tu rasa sedih sangat sebab dah tak kelas sama.Sekejap sekejap awie datang kelas saya duduk sama.Saya pon melawat dia di kelas dia.

When the year two finally start saya pindah ke KL balik.And that was the last time i met him after years.

When i was in high school,Awie enrolled in the same school as me.But obviously things are different back then.We became like strangers and not as close as we used to like when we were kids.It's just awkward la kan.Dah besar baru jumpa balik.Borak pon malu malu.But dia tak lama in my high school,after that he moved out and i also moved to Australia for a while and that was it.It ends there.

Bila fikir balik about the days when were young and innocent,rasa macam nak balik ke masa dulu.Free from responsibilities and problems.Everything is just fine and good right? And i wonder where he is now.

So do you still remember who's your first best friend?